Posts by deservingone26

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the other side of my story and why im going back

by deservingone26 in

jw
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there are two parts to this topic you can read one or the other or both if you want, i just figured i post this for differents ones who might being going thru what i am going thru i tried to write this as quick as possible so everything i am posting here is not to offend anyone i know everyone has the own opinions on different things so you can disagree or agree, but this is where i stand.

sorry for any spelling errors or grammar issues up front.

my story .

deservingone26

Entirely possible - i think i know brother dan lol we both live in phoenix he sent me a pm but still trying to find out if we know each other. and 2nd when i came out this site for the first time 4 years ago i typed in jehovah witness forum in google, i was really into the religion forum on myspace so i figured i might as well look for a site dedicated to the witnesses It never stated anything about this being a site specifically for exwitnesses and no longer wanted to be apart of the religion, i have found out there are many who post on here that are still in, and some that just come and visit cuse they are curious i wish everyone would tell their stories here but not everyone does. i did! and hopefully people can relate. my meeting is at 7 not everyone goes at the same time some people have to go to the meeting on saturdays im sure youve never heard of that. im not saying that your either a witness or miserable, im saying why not live your life and be a witness at the same time im just saying gods requirements arent asking that much. I can admit that when i party i act on my own desires and i get drunk and do other things out of my own selfish desires(my opinion) my ultimate goal is to know that i am pleasing god not man!

Today while browsing my facebook friends status updates he posted a quotes a quote that really effected me even though he is not one of jehovahs witnesses i think that its great that he post so many bible scriptures and how he really does want to help other see the light, and he doesnt let negative comments bring him down. i will continue to post here on this site sparatically on people topics i believe i can relate to.

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the other side of my story and why im going back

by deservingone26 in

jw
friends

there are two parts to this topic you can read one or the other or both if you want, i just figured i post this for differents ones who might being going thru what i am going thru i tried to write this as quick as possible so everything i am posting here is not to offend anyone i know everyone has the own opinions on different things so you can disagree or agree, but this is where i stand.

sorry for any spelling errors or grammar issues up front.

my story .

deservingone26

varian: I can relate to the partying as you have read my story you can see but as far as marrying someone i honestly might be single for the rest of my life i dont know if i have a std, i wasnt always safe and who know i could have a std, i feel fine but i havent gotten checked but before i start dating i am gonna get checked out and 2ndly marrying only jehovahs witness is a man made rule while it is easier its jehovah who willl judge you in the end if you marry someone who is interested in serving god then i dont see why it would be hard to convert her to a jehovahs witness it worked for my cousin, she got baptized and she now pioneers but either way single are married it really comes down to your faith! if you dont have the belief that jehovah has something more in store for you and that he will forgive you for your sins then yeah religion is not for you. I have alot to wrk on myself because not only do i have to fully convince myself i have to convince others as well so i got alot of bible reading and prayer that i need to do.

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the other side of my story and why im going back

by deservingone26 in

jw
friends

there are two parts to this topic you can read one or the other or both if you want, i just figured i post this for differents ones who might being going thru what i am going thru i tried to write this as quick as possible so everything i am posting here is not to offend anyone i know everyone has the own opinions on different things so you can disagree or agree, but this is where i stand.

sorry for any spelling errors or grammar issues up front.

my story .

deservingone26

Ive already made up my mind that this is what i am going to do but i come to realise that most people that come to this site want to get able to be able to discuss what they are going thru and maybe someone is going thru the same thing i am going thru

outlaw- lol i like your posts there always funny but yeah man im gonna do what i want to do, its my life but i am going to focus on following gods commandments not what everyone else wants me to do, example: Im gonna listen to michael even though some witnesses believe that is bad, I going to go to school even tho some dont see the importance of it, the majority of my witness family has either there bachelors,masters and one almost has her doctarates degree, my plan will be to put jehovah first then myself next cuse if i love myself loving everyone else will be a given. my mistake i made b4 was worrying about everyone else and what everyone else was doing and how different ones would treat me with disrespect but Ive come to realize that people can come to not like you over something as simple as your color of your skin so you cant be friends with everyone.

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a couple questions for everyone here

by deservingone26 in

im just curious about a couple things:.

1. most of you seem to be pretty satisfied that you left the the witness world but now that your gone what drives you now?

what makes you excited about life?

deservingone26

I have to admit question # 2 was not worded right and it was a bit rude but i appologize about that because after reading everyones posts i understand why people post so much, the main goal of this site is to let people discuss different jehovah witness issues, some people have been hurt badly by some of the member of the jw religion and this place provides a place where they can have others that can relate to their issues.

I myself do want to help people see that there is more to this life and by following gods commands we will be highly rewarded, some people are fine with dying within the 70 to 80 years of life and I have grown to accept that as well but living my life to the fullest but also following gods commands is something i dont personally see as that hard, the only thing that has been holding me back is my love for partying and i know that life is not all about that.

I say that some people are better off in the witness world because the witness world gives you a structure to go by it gives you steps to take and keeps you busy and some people look at the world and see nothing but bad so they join in with the bad because they say they only have one life to live and were gonna die soon anyway, they get involved in different acts of crime, sexual acts, harm against there body (drugs,alcohol and many other things) when you hear of crazy stories of the different things people do does it ever make you wonder what they were thinking? You honestly dont believe that if maybe they had been introduced to god, example to jehovahs witnesses that maybe they would have thought twice, that just my opinion and there are several of people out there that have no direction in life! when you drink alot with your friends that subject seems to always come up at some point, so it would be better to tell them tough luck, thats life, we have no purpose on this earth but to have kids and make lots of money?i personally would rather tell them that god is your creator and he does have a purpose for you!

I started my meetings today it started at 7.lots of good points they brought out tonight! my purpose of coming to this site has been to convince myself that I dont want to be a witness that is why i just overlook all the positive things that are posted here and that is why i was saying what i was saying in question# 2 but every time i convince myself its just so i can do what i want to do which in my opinion is selfish since god is our creator. I just know that I have more in store for myself I wrote this topic to see everyones perspective on different things after reading all the posts I see that all of you could be jehovahs witnesses too if you wanted i dont really see how your current lifestyles would be effected.

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the other side of my story and why im going back

by deservingone26 in

jw
friends

there are two parts to this topic you can read one or the other or both if you want, i just figured i post this for differents ones who might being going thru what i am going thru i tried to write this as quick as possible so everything i am posting here is not to offend anyone i know everyone has the own opinions on different things so you can disagree or agree, but this is where i stand.

sorry for any spelling errors or grammar issues up front.

my story .

deservingone26

There are two parts to this topic you can read one or the other or both if you want, i just figured i post this for differents ones who might being going thru what I am going thru i tried to write this as quick as possible so everything I am posting here is not to offend anyone I know everyone has the own opinions on different things so you can disagree or agree, but this is where i stand. sorry for any spelling errors or grammar issues up front.

my story

Through out my life of 24 years i feel like I have made a lot of mistakes which i know is apart of life we are not perfect but i feel like one of the biggest mistakes I made was leaving the organization. All of my family, and closest friends are still associated with the witnesses and I decided to take the road of selfishness and sin! I decided that I wanted to do things my way and while I dont regret my decision fully I still wonder what my life could have been if I would have just stayed. My parents provided me with a brand new car, a place to stay, and college paid for and all i had to do was follow gods commandments, I really thought I was missing out though by not being able to celebrate holidays not being able to choose who i associated with. and not being able to do things like play violent video games or watch R rated movies. Everyone to me seemed to be having so much fun and being a witness was holding me back! I was tired of being the "goodie good "I didnt want to wait til marriage to have sex. So i decided shortly after i was baptized that i didnt really care anymore and I was going to what I wanted so at 17 I decided to start hanging with some of the other youths that i went to school with and worked with and also other witness youths who shared the same desires as me. For me I loved to party every weekend we would drive all around town looking for the best parties. I started drinking alot and then started getting into drugs a little just weed tho. and i lost my virginity at 18. after i graduated high school i decided that I wanted to move out so i moved out with 5 of my jw friends. but within 6 months of living together 4 of the 6 got disfellowshiped the other 2 just stopped going(one of which is now facing 10 to 15 years in prison for drug trafficking) during the last 4 almost 5 years i have been df'd i have not been able to make up my mind on what I want to do. Do i want to get reinstated or do I want to do whatever i want? but for me that has meant weeks of me going back to the meetings and then changing my mind and going back to my old life style. For some reason I do love to party, i love to drink I love the club atmosphere, I love the way some drugs make me feel but now I am starting to notice the effects the partying has had on me. and its getting boring I want to get back into school get a career. my job now gets me what i want for the most part but I know i could be doing better! I know there is so much more to life then what I am doing now! and I truly believe that the bible is correct and that if we follow gods commands we can really live life the way it was intended and not in this short span of 70 to 80 years.

Why not go back

My whole family from my mom, dad, sister, aunts uncles cousins grandma they are all witnesses and I am really fighting to be out for what? Now that I am older I dont see life like i use to. I have learned that friends come and go (witness or non witness) I have learned that you have to love yourself and put yourself first before others because 90% percent of the time thats what everyone else doing. I feel like this step is best for me because i do believe in god. I dont believe that this world did not have a designer, just thinking how I wake up everyday and how everything in my body works in such a precise manner, how the earth is set up with the oceans and mountain and how the sun comes up everyday and i could go into detail for days on how everything is set up so perfectly around us. How could there not be a designer? that just my opinion i have never actually looked into full detail of any other argument but I know there are several scientists in the world who are required to know the other arguments but yet they still believe in god! I believe we all have a purpose and that is to serve god and this system of things that we are living in now is just a test and jehovah is going to reward those who were faithful to him. This is just my opinion but what is so great about not serving god his requirements are easy! And to pass up a possible reward just to live your life the way you want is it really worth it? higher education to find a great career is a great idea but you can also do that as a witness. Going to school actually makes it easier to be a witness because you can get a business degree learn how to run your own business so you can make your own schedule so that you can do things like meetings and service. thats what my cousin did and she is very succesful financial wise,but still puts jehovah first but she has plenty of time to take care of her family and make all the meeting and to go out in service and many other witnesses have done the same thing You want to start a family and focus all your time on them you can do this as a witness!but you will also be teaching them god commands. Me personally i will give me children the choice to do what they want but i will try to explain to them the best way possible why certain routes they should really think about going down. I know most of you have probably had bad experiences with the witnesses rather that was your parents raising you a certain way or an elder or someone in the congregation being overly or rude towards you. but you have to make the main reason you go to the meeting be for jehovah! I believe that there is a reward for us in the future if we fight for it!

Honestly make a list to yourself or on this topic if you want stating how witnesses where holding you back from living your life to the fullest!

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a couple questions for everyone here

by deservingone26 in

im just curious about a couple things:.

1. most of you seem to be pretty satisfied that you left the the witness world but now that your gone what drives you now?

what makes you excited about life?

deservingone26

sorry for all the spelling issues lol

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a couple questions for everyone here

by deservingone26 in

im just curious about a couple things:.

1. most of you seem to be pretty satisfied that you left the the witness world but now that your gone what drives you now?

what makes you excited about life?

deservingone26

after reading everyone post again I can do all of these things as a witness plus I can have my family back and new friend who like to do different things. that is one thing i miss about the witnesses being able to hang out with all types of different ppl young, old, and lots of single sister lol. I will have a network of ppl all around the world so if i want to travel or move out of state it will be alot easier for me to meet new ppl. I got to get ready for the meeting now it starts in like 30 minutes

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a couple questions for everyone here

by deservingone26 in

im just curious about a couple things:.

1. most of you seem to be pretty satisfied that you left the the witness world but now that your gone what drives you now?

what makes you excited about life?

deservingone26

i appreciate all of your post i was just curious, its cool to see other peoples perspectives on different things I feel like this is like counseling for me right now lol all the advice on here has been great! I guess i just got to focus on all the positves things that i have going on for myself and focus on just building on that.

but truthfully i am going to just go back I cant handle this anymore not being able to speak with my parents or family on a regular basis. im not doing anything that is worth staying out for, celebrating holidays isnt that great, giving and accepting blood isnt really a big deal to me specially since they have so many bloodless surgeries now(hopefully that is never something i have to decide upon) and i still plan on going to school i dont see why being a jw with stop that but yeah i just feel alone, my friends that are nonwitnesses or exwitnesses are all druggies and alcoholics and im tired of that lifestyle. and i dont really see myself making friends on this site even though most of you seem pretty cool and seem to go out of your way to help others. I appreciate everyone who has commented on my posts. and even though im returning its not like im returning to be a super zealous witness(elder,pioneer,minsterial servant) Im just going to go to my meetings and go out in service when i get the chance. I feel like there are alot of ppl in the world who would be better off being in the witness world, so preaching to ones who are looking for some kind of purpose in life will be better then me just doing what i am doing now. thanks again

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a couple questions for everyone here

by deservingone26 in

im just curious about a couple things:.

1. most of you seem to be pretty satisfied that you left the the witness world but now that your gone what drives you now?

what makes you excited about life?

deservingone26

are you still in glentrevette?

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a couple questions for everyone here

by deservingone26 in

im just curious about a couple things:.

1. most of you seem to be pretty satisfied that you left the the witness world but now that your gone what drives you now?

what makes you excited about life?

deservingone26

thanks for your reply i like you quote 'Jump in and take a swim in the sea of life!' cos its not a rehearsal' and your right i am glad they made this site because it is a place where people can get together and share their feeling about different things and some of the post are pretty helpful for me maybe i have just been focusing to much on the negative things. college is something i am looking into now that i am 24 i can fill out my own fasfa without having to have my parents info so I can get financial aid! but I dont know what i want to study lol ill figure my life out eventually i guess lol