Enjoyed your post very much. I too was in it all my life. I am 31 years old. In my late 20's I began having doubts. My grandma had been trying to get me to read COC for more than 10 years. Turning 30 made me wonder about my life and where I was headed. That along with strong doubts and the realization that if it was indeed "the truth" it should be able to stand up against scrutiny, led me to finally read it. And I agree with you :
"You see, there's a big difference between a newbie and a long time member. And they are both affected in far different a way by the truth about "the truth"."
Excelent point. We all have the bond of having some association w/ JW"s on this board. But there is a extremely special bond among former JW's who were raised in it. No matter what convictions we have now, that upbringing shaped who we are. And there is this common awareness that those raised in it can always understand.
Those of you who are teetering back and forth, take your time, but not too much time.Reassure yourself one way or the other, using a VARIETY of resourses, because life WILL pass you by my friends.
I continue to be impressed and enlightened and understood by the cool people on this board.