LonghairGal.
” From what I read so far.. many are people who woke up before they got old but even these are resentful over their life being derailed with wasted time pursuing spiritual goals and having to start over at a later age getting an education/job.”
Absolutely! I hate my time spent in service. I am approaching 66 now and due to 9 years and something missionary-service I have a gap of 18% in my Dutch state pension. Luckily I moved to Belgium in 2004 and institutions are helping me trying to fix it.
At the end you can only blame yourself.