Hey SFPW....all of us can say with confidence that you would never admit to reading and posting on what all faithful JW's would say is an "apostate" site. But the fact that you come here secretly out of the sight of your fellow worshipers and interact with those who have found out by one way or another that the WT is just another false religion, is a clear indication that you truly DON'T believe in Jehovah's existence. If you did you would shudder that he observes your behavior and disapproves just the same as he would if you secretly viewed a porn site or engaged in fornication without a twinge of guilt. Your visits to this site and posting makes it clear that you don't think he exists.
Congrats! As a lifelong born in JW...I read and post here too knowing jehovah doesn't exist either...that's after careful research and fact finding...I openly curse at him like Jobs wife said he should do..and be killed...but I'm still here...alive and well....
More power to you!