You did really well, i realise now that it should have ringed alarm bells that even in your own home, they presume to be the authority, but Is it love?
Do they know what love even is? Love would never disfellowship in the first place. Jesus broke a law that deserved death, he broke the sabbath to heal a man. Yet the WT will let people, children, babies die, because they believe they are the authority on scripture. None of this sounds like love, it isnt love.
Yes we all had friends and some of us have loved ones left behind. But we are the free, we are the fortunate. They are enslaved to a dream that will never come to pass. Find one scripture that even says paradise earth..... There isnt one.... They know it..... Love is not their goal, its plain, cold recruitment.
Sorry.
Be strong, remember the realities as well as the good times. Remember what you had to ignore, not ask, not question in order to be told how to live.
Again... Its not love. Think of your family, your children, your baby to come. Think of not allowing birthdays because some men in brooklyn deem it evil, their evidence being 'bad things happened in birthdays in the bible'. Think of the love you have for your family and think of the love they claim to be showing. Its very, very , very different. How many of them have been to see you, said hello to you, these people that knew you since birth? How many show you love when you decide to not live by their lifestyle? Love is unconditional. Simple as that.
Snare x