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  Thought I was stronger!

  by Peony in

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  just come home from a weight loss class early.

  it's 6 months since i da'd and two and a half years since i've been to a meeting.

  there was a witness there (unless she has left, i wouldn't know) we made eye contact!

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  It's just horrible, mind you going back would be Much worse, a glass or two of wine seems to have helped 😏
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  Thought I was stronger!

  by Peony in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  just come home from a weight loss class early.

  it's 6 months since i da'd and two and a half years since i've been to a meeting.

  there was a witness there (unless she has left, i wouldn't know) we made eye contact!

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  Just come home from a weight loss class early. It's 6 months since I DA'd and two and a half years since I've been to a meeting. There was a witness there (unless she has left, I wouldn't know) we made eye contact! I thought I was stronger but obviously not - I started shaking uncontrollably - I feel like such an idiot because I know I have done nothing wrong. I was hoping she wouldn't stay for the chat part of the class but she sat in front of me!! I had to get up and walk out whilst bawling my eyes out. Mind you there was only about 9 of us sat down, I think it was just too close for comfort. How does everyone else cope when they see witnesses?
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  What woke you up?

  by Israel Ricky Gonzales in

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  in march of 2014, i was a very active jw, a ministerial servant, gave a public talk, was an attendant for the memorial, and one of 4 cleaning captains for an international convention of 40,000+ attendees.

  so what woke me up?

  an innocent comment from a co-worker about the candice conti court case rang a bell that could not be unrung.

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  For me it was the 'game playing' 'be seen to be doing the right thing'.
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  Lurker - just joined

  by Je.suis.oisif in

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  hi all, nothing to report just now.

  wanted to add name to list of those awakening.

  been lurking for nearly a year.

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  Peony

  Welcome from one newbie to another x
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  Introducing Myself

  by Peony in

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  i've finally got round to joining the site (after over 2 years lurking!

  i was born into jws, pioneered for 10 years (met my husband at pioneer school).

  had health issues that saw me catapulted away from 'the centre of the cong' and wow what a different place that was!

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  Haha, Stan livedeath. I beat you on the car reg -whilst pioneering in the late 80's I had a mini kgb 666k. Weirdly was never counselled on that one!
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  Introducing Myself

  by Peony in

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  i've finally got round to joining the site (after over 2 years lurking!

  i was born into jws, pioneered for 10 years (met my husband at pioneer school).

  had health issues that saw me catapulted away from 'the centre of the cong' and wow what a different place that was!

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  I'll ask Phizzy but I'm pretty sure not, we had a bit of a bonfire!!! I don't even own a bible anymore!
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  Introducing Myself

  by Peony in

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  2. experiences

  i've finally got round to joining the site (after over 2 years lurking!

  i was born into jws, pioneered for 10 years (met my husband at pioneer school).

  had health issues that saw me catapulted away from 'the centre of the cong' and wow what a different place that was!

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  Ooh Half Banana, I wonder if we know each other!!!

  I had ME (like so many) it basically started as soon as my youngest went to school. I had stopped pioneering as soon as I was pregnant with my first child and of course being a good 'witness' girl enrolled as soon as my days were free again, only managed 3 months then entered my 6 years of hell with ME! I got myself better by doing a course similar to cognitive behavioural therapy (I was frowned on for doing it though - no surprise there)! I also had depression for 15 years. 3 months after leaving JWs I was off all antidepressants and even with all the fallout for the last two and a half years have never needed to go back on them. If that doesn't tell me how toxic that religion is nothing will!
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  Introducing Myself

  by Peony in

  1. jw
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  i've finally got round to joining the site (after over 2 years lurking!

  i was born into jws, pioneered for 10 years (met my husband at pioneer school).

  had health issues that saw me catapulted away from 'the centre of the cong' and wow what a different place that was!

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  Thank you all for the lovely welcomes. It's so lovely to be alongside loving/non judgemental people (haven't been used to that)!

  A bit more about myself I'm 47 and live just outside Oxford UK. I love that I can write that as I'm DA'd and there is nothing more they can do to me! All of my JW family and friends are very loyal to Borg so there is no contact, for the couple of years before we DA'd it was difficult, family were all ok with us but their sneaky little 'trying to make us see how great the Borg is, we're having soooo much fun, look at this interesting article' thing was really getting to us. Last time I saw my FIL I told him that there was no point trying to show me articles because they are biased and he has only one point of reference to go to (wbts) whereas I have a broader picture so am able to make better judgements. So I think things may have come to a head anyway ( and if you knew me you would know how huge that was for me, I hate confrontation). JW posts on FB as well, arghh!
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  Introducing Myself

  by Peony in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i've finally got round to joining the site (after over 2 years lurking!

  i was born into jws, pioneered for 10 years (met my husband at pioneer school).

  had health issues that saw me catapulted away from 'the centre of the cong' and wow what a different place that was!

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  Haha, I should have said COBE not PO, showing my age!!
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  Introducing Myself

  by Peony in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i've finally got round to joining the site (after over 2 years lurking!

  i was born into jws, pioneered for 10 years (met my husband at pioneer school).

  had health issues that saw me catapulted away from 'the centre of the cong' and wow what a different place that was!

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  Peony

  A few things happened that made my husband leave. When he became an elder he was shocked at the way some in the body would talk about the R&F, the PO even called one of the brothers 'a waste of space' he found it very upsetting and of course couldn't talk to me about it. His best friend died (refused blood). And then he was involved in an abuse case, the elders recommended that the victim not go to the police (it was an historic case) my husband wrote to the society as he felt the person should not be discouraged from contacting the police. The society replied saying it was a decision for the local body to make!!!! They totally washed their hands of it. To the press they say one thing and then do another, very dishonest!