Posts by Je.suis.oisif

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NOW it's Important

by TheLiberator in

i have spent 45 years of my life sacrificing my soul to the watchtower.

twenty-five of those years as a ms/elder.

i gave every moment to them.

Je.suis.oisif

Welcome. That's a mighty long time to flog a dead horse. Now that you've discovered that's what you've been doing all that time.

I noticed that same attitude last week with my visiting sister-in-law. Neither of them are JW's, but she works with a few. They're all nice people. Not an issue. But I asked her what they thought about the ARC and how the WTBT$ dealt with child abuse worldwide. Her attitude to me was dismissive & patronising. I registered it but moved on.

I've just erased what I was going to add. But you've captured it in your OP. Ease up on the resentment though and channel your mental energy into living what's left of your life.

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This week's resurrection video, will it backfire on the wt?

by prologos in

the resurrection is supposed to be a joyous occasion?, if it ever happened!

--well, this week's showing at the hall was the opposite, it was about death with violins playing in the background.

a recently bereaved member, , full of tears, (like many others) could not contain herself.

Je.suis.oisif

Muddy Waters,

Condolences. It might be a few years old , but doesn't it have a totally different impact when your brain is deprogramming? I don't have a hope anymore, but remembering how I felt when I first saw it is tantamount to how I felt when I realised at 42 I'd been abused by a male relative! Freaking sleazy doesnt5come close to how I felt.

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This week's resurrection video, will it backfire on the wt?

by prologos in

the resurrection is supposed to be a joyous occasion?, if it ever happened!

--well, this week's showing at the hall was the opposite, it was about death with violins playing in the background.

a recently bereaved member, , full of tears, (like many others) could not contain herself.

Je.suis.oisif

This thread has just triggered something I'd forgotten. Back in 2013 at Mancbester summer convention. I got friendly with an elder and his wife. We found out that their son had recently been murdered, and I had lost my mum 6mnths prior. We bonded immediately.

There was a video in the afternoon about the resurrection. The violin music was excruciating. You could feel it suck the breath collectively out of the arena. The wife shot out of her seat and bolted. I looked around. Everybody just sat like statues glued to their seats. After about 5secs I instinctively caught her up in the ladies. We hugged each other for ages. Sobbing deeply. I now remember how violated I felt. Like I'd been forced to confront or perform to a certain behaviour that I didn't feel comfortable with. I felt her grief more than my own.

I also remember observing how a c/o behaved towards this elder's wife. I thought he was an ignorant tw**. I slipped her my email address, but she never contacted me. Aaah the memories. Golden, not.

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My "best" friend (active JW) has just died

by Terry in

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johnny santa cruz and i met around 1959 at a movie theater in fort worth, texas.. the purpose of that meeting was to create a fanclub for horror movie director william castle.

a week or so later, johnny stopped me as i was walking home from elementary school.. "hey--i think i know you.

weren't you at the william castle fanclub thing?".

Je.suis.oisif

My condolences Terry.

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Are you ready for armageddon?

by atomant in

just imagine the panic.disbelief.oh my god they were right.then you pee in your pants.what will l do?the plea for forgiveness.please let me through.l promise l''ll change.l didn;t mean what l said on that jw.com site.l was jokin.then you wake up it was only a dream.disbelief turns to relief.

but it could happen..

Je.suis.oisif

I'll take my chances with the "Big man upstairs" if and when A happens. Rather that than live my life full of despair and anxiety.

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Berkshire Circuit (UK)

by Dont_Believe_The_Truth in

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i'm hearing rumours of huge changes within the berkshire circuit here in the uk .

congregations being dispanded and kingdom halls closing down and being sold off.... official announcements within the next month apparently .

does anyone else have anymore info?.

Je.suis.oisif

I know lots who attend the KH in Farnborough. It's a beautiful converted cinema/theatre that houses 4 congns. 2 x up, 2x downstairs. I remarked a couple of years ago that this is prime location property, and I wondered how long they would be allowed to remain in it. Megga bucks to a property developer. They just looked at me. My younger daughter DA'd last month, so I've no way in finding out what's going down.

Is There No End To This Madness?

by Je.suis.oisif in

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3475656/i-like-ted-cruz-want-trans-ambassador-republican-caitlyn-jenner-says-want-work-evangelical-christian-despite-anti-lgbt-views.html.

caitlin jenner has lead a privileged life style.

she openley admits that the biggest decision she has to make is what to wear.

Je.suis.oisif

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3475656/I-like-Ted-Cruz-want-trans-ambassador-Republican-Caitlyn-Jenner-says-want-work-evangelical-Christian-despite-anti-LGBT-views.html

Caitlin Jenner has lead a privileged life style. She openley admits that the biggest decision she has to make is what to wear. Please dont think I'm anti LGBT. I'm not. She's only been living as a women for about 2yrs.

Maybe I'm over invested in the Kardashians! I need to get a life.

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Did any of us ever enjoy meetings?

by stephanie61092 in

this is a legitimate question.

did any of us ever find real joy in being at the meetings?

did any of us ever finish a meeting and think "i feel so enriched"?

Je.suis.oisif

Funny, I'm in the " helped to deal with long periods of boredom" camp. I was asked by a prominent elder in our circuit if I enjoyed the meetings, and I said "No"! He just glared at me and never spoke to me again. It was over 25yrs he kept this up?

I absolutely hated assemblies. I used to wish I could die rather than attend. This introduced me to thinking about the state of death being preferable to everything connected with my life as a jw. You've guessed, I thought about being dead 24/7. But since I've faded I look forward to each new day, and have never wished myself dead in the last 6mnths. <mexican wave>.

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