I went to the doctor twice about it... nothing... i think i need actual medicine for this... is horrible!!!
I want to get out of thi hole... i am going crazy i want to scream... i want to end it all!! i am tire.. sorry i just needed to vent...
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What can I do when I feel i can't keep going....
by Free!! ini have been having an awful week/month/year/life and i just feel like i can not move forward anymore... is like life is passing me by and i am just observing from the side lines.... i am so tired, i just want to sleep and never wake up..... has anyone felt like this?
i tried therapy (twice) an it did not work, i tried volunteering and surrounding myself with other people and things to do, and it works until i have to come home, then that feeling of emptiness returns.... .
i am so tired... i do not know what else to do.... .
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What can I do when I feel i can't keep going....
by Free!! ini have been having an awful week/month/year/life and i just feel like i can not move forward anymore... is like life is passing me by and i am just observing from the side lines.... i am so tired, i just want to sleep and never wake up..... has anyone felt like this?
i tried therapy (twice) an it did not work, i tried volunteering and surrounding myself with other people and things to do, and it works until i have to come home, then that feeling of emptiness returns.... .
i am so tired... i do not know what else to do.... .
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I have been having an awful week/month/year/life and I just feel like I can not move forward anymore... is like life is passing me by and i am just observing from the side lines.... i am so tired, i just want to sleep and never wake up....
Has anyone felt like this? what did you do?.... i tried therapy (twice) an it did not work, i tried volunteering and surrounding myself with other people and things to do, and it works until i have to come home, then that feeling of emptiness returns....
i am so tired... i do not know what else to do....
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911 forgotten amongst JWs
by fade_away ini noticed over the last 10 years that in every 9/11 anniversary, jws that i know personally don't even mention it.
not a word about the anniversary.
not a compassionate comment, not a prayer....nothing.
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I agree with many posters here that say there are people dying every day in other countries due to civil war and other forms of terrorism, there lives are just as valuable as the ones lost on September 11, 2001. The difference for me is that in those countries know whats going on and try to be careful and aware because they know they can expect an act of terrorism any day, on 9/11 the attack took the whole world by surprise, i believe that's what shocked us the most. The most powerful country in the world (at that moment) was attacked in their own soil out of the blue, and almost 3000 lives were lost.
Regardless of where we are in the world or the date in the calendar I believe is important to think about those who have lost their lives because of the ignorance and evil doings of others, let's never forget them, no matter where they were from or how they left this world.
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My reflections on this 9/11 anniversary
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For me, the image that is still in my mind and i know will be with me forever is that of the "falling man", victims who made a brave decision not about dying but how they were going to die... i believe some fell by accident but others made a choice, one last thing they could control with dignity.... they new the result was going to be the same, but they could choice how to leave this world.... ='(
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WBTS and 9/11
by african GB Member ini was'nt that well informed at the time of the event, what i'd like to know is how the org responded to the tragedy.they must have had a filled day.
it would also be interesting to see the statistics in the 2002 yearbook.
perhaps some people believed jw's at the time due to fear and frustration, or maybe even some disillusioned jw/apostates, df'd, da'd,...went to kh immidiately afterwards..
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I remember this article, and i also remember it came out like 2-3 months after the attacks.... i remember how i kept asking myself, how come everyone keeps acting like nothing happened?..... meetings on schedule, same crap they tought every week... nothing different..... while the world was mourning...
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New Ex-JW Documentary To Be Released
by discreetslave inabout filmtruth be told is a feature length documentary that explores the lives of several individuals raised in the jehovahs witnesses religion.
the title of the film refers to the tendency by jehovahs witnesses to regard their beliefs exclusively as the truth.. the documentary is not an indictment of religion but rather a retrospective.
in a series of informal interviews, former jehovahs witnesses discuss life experiences within the organization including the impact the religion had on their childhood and family, schooling, adolescence, and approaches to dating and marriage.
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Is a very well produced documentary... i can't wait for it come out... :)
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Stressful Session with Uber-Zealous Parents--The Mermaid needs a hug!
by Cadellin inokay, for those of you who don't know, i was raised jw by really great though uber-zealous parents.
i'm now an adult and have been inactive for about two years due a bunch of reasons, the primary one (or at least the one that got the ball rolling) being the pathological intellectual dishonesty of the wt in how it handles secular quotes and citations.
anyway, my parents are aware of all that and have left the issue alone for about the last year.
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((((((((((((Cadellin)))))))))))))
I understand how you feel.... is going to get better... just be patient i think the WT study this week is getting them all worried and remind them about those of us who left.... i faded 3 years ago, and this week for some strange reason i got some misterious phone calls... so... let's just wait a couple of days and let's see what happens!
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the power of mind control, fear and loneliness
by Free!! ini was looking at the news and came accross this article... so sad.... :(.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2034074/ria-ramkissoon-speaks-time-killing-son-cult.html .
it made me think about the power of fear and loneliness... in moments of desperation we only see what we want to see and are easy prey to cults like the jws and the one mentioned in the article.. lives are lost and guilt stays w those who survived forever... i am so happy i opened my eyes... because even though we may think we would never act as crazy as it seems the lady in the article did... we never know..
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I was looking at the news and came accross this article... so sad.... :(
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2034074/Ria-Ramkissoon-speaks-time-killing-son-cult.html
It made me think about the power of fear and loneliness... in moments of desperation we only see what we want to see and are easy prey to cults like the JWs and the one mentioned in the article.. lives are lost and guilt stays w those who survived forever... i am so happy i opened my eyes... because even though we may think we would never act as crazy as it seems the lady in the article did... we never know.
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another sad blood story
by Found Sheep inso i had a patient this week that needed blood.
as i always do i give the signs of a rejection and pros and cons... she said of course i'll have one since i need it... i just don't understand people that don't!!!
and they would rather die.
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Giordano... i did not know about this!! WOW!! i am watching the documentary now.... is horrible what mind control can do!
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another sad blood story
by Found Sheep inso i had a patient this week that needed blood.
as i always do i give the signs of a rejection and pros and cons... she said of course i'll have one since i need it... i just don't understand people that don't!!!
and they would rather die.
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you can tell most of the idiots that wrote the WT doctrines about blood were cold hearted @$$3$ and did not have any kids.... i'll go crazy if something happens to my dogs!!! imagining if i had a child!! how can you let your kid die???!!! I am po'd right now....