the bryant tragedy has really been stuck in my head and heart this week as i'm sure it has been for all of us.
it occured to me though that there may be some here or lurking that do not understand what made robert do what he did.
there may be some who think that his was an isolated incidence of severe untreated mental illness and have nothing to do with his being disfellowshiped.
Flower, you had a rough time of it and thankfully you are a survivor. My heart goes out to you. It sounds like you went through what my mother is still struggling with. She thinks she has no hope and cannot pray to God, because she is not a JW. She has been df for 13 years now. Thank you for sharing your story. It helps me to understand my mom a little better. Lots of hugs, love and prayers.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
i'll get the ball rolling with mine.
i actually have two, but i will talk about the one that happened at the kingdom hall.
i was about 17 years old at the time.
My most embarrasing moment was when I fell face first and slid across the parking lot that was not paved. It was muddy and rocky since it had been raining and I was wearing a pale green dress. My dress was ruined, everyone could see straight through my dress and I was picked on about that event for the rest of my life. In addition the guy I had a crush on was watching. Humiliating at 12 to say the least. Oh well.. such is life.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
<fluff> .
at the book studies?
they were the highlight of the month.. thing is, all the sisters would try to outdo each other making nice food, which amused me no end, and also kept my stomach filled up, but drove me nuts, because my mother would spend the entire afternoon making a giant racket in the kitchen and screaming @ my sister whilst doing it, just to bake a cool cake for the book study.. also, remember those last ~15 minutes before the end of cake night book studies?
I remember cake night and other times our congregation would get together usually around Halloween or Easter time for a festival. A cookie bake at my parent's house on Halloween, fall festivals etc... But never say we were celebrating the holiday the world was. I have a feeling those around us would not have known the difference. In addition we would go to the skating rink each Sunday night until that was put to an end at an assembly where all modern music was condemned. Then we started playing soft ball each Sunday evening. Then after my parent's divorce, I was not invited to these events anymore. When I would attend I would be ignored. Oh well, such is life... found better things to do with my life since then.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
i just wanted to update everyone on several things happening in my life lately.
i regret i have not been posting lately, but so much .
has been happening that i have not had a chance.
Greetings all,
I just wanted to update everyone on several things happening in my life lately. I regret I have not been posting lately, but so much
has been happening that I have not had a chance. For starters, I had the honor and priviledge to go to Ground Zero, NYC, to work at Saint Paul's Chapel serving the workers at Ground Zero. It was an emotional event that I must say will be with me for the rest of my life. I am glad I went. It has changed my out look on things in many ways - spiritually, and personally. I know for a fact I would never had this chance if I was still a JW. Talk about reaffirmation of leaving the org.
I must say many times during my life I have leaned towards atheism or being agnostic often times I think due to being raised a JW. This trip and several events since really reaffirmed to me God's existance.
I must say that it has been very hard for me to adapt to any religious teachings although I believe in my heart that the bible is the truth (I am not referring to the JW teaching, but the truth spiritually for myself). Maybe it is partly due to the fact I am very analytical. Not sure, but I thank God for this trip, because I saw God on a level I had forgotten in the midst of all this.
I returned from this trip very angry, but I am glad I did. The creative side of me had flourished since this trip and many good things have started. I have managed to write a song (non related to NYC) and finally post my personal website.
In addition, I came back with hip problems and then fell on the same hip Sunday. Needless to say I have been on bed rest with plenty of time on my hands. A lot more than I am use to. Thankfully, the problems are muscular not spinal or joint related.
Well, I am back and should be posting more. I have missed reading everyone's post. Any one with questions, let me know. I have pics from ground zero. Email me and I will send some to you.
Btw, today I had a chance to speak out against the JW to a woman who they are trying to start a "bible study" with. I hope she listened. I will update when I know more about that situation.
Hope all is well with everyone.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
do you think that the jw religion is a cult?
i believe that it is, but i wanted to get other people's opinion.
Are the JWs a cult? I must say I think they are. This is just my opinion, but it is based on what I have witnessed.
If you do not live exactly the way the JWs want you to or if you question things you are subject to DF. Freewill and use of your
mind is highly discouraged. People do not lives lives productively in fear of the "in of times." Most JWs are unstable financially, because most of their time is spent "serving J." What I have
read in the bible (and I have read the entire bible with out the aid of JW literature) shows me something is wrong with this picture.
Even the apostle Paul warns early christians not to stop living their lives in fear of the end of times. This was addressed several
times in the "new testament." Unfortunately, I do not have the scriptures handy to reference them. Accepting sinners is part of what christ and the early apostles taught. This is not what the JW teach. If you are not a JW, you are an apostate and unworthy of God. This is not the loving God pictured in the bible. Even in the
"old testament" there are ways for non Jewish people to
know God. Today, this often thought of as the Law of Noah. So, now all of a sudden there is only one organization that is able to bring people to Christ? Odd thought in my book. This goes contrary to the teachings of the entire bible.
I could go on and on in regards to the misteaching of the JW, but do not have the time to now. Read, learn, seak materials outside of the JW. This does not even have to be published by former JW. Read the bible. Find a non JW bible and read it. Compare the differences. Study the real history of the world. Learn about Judaism. Look at the rude manner former JW are treated in. The JW have destroyed my mother's career, because they will not even act as if she existed now that she is DF. She use to work for another JW and has had problems getting another job, because of his attitude? Is the the way of God?
I think not. I know not. Read the scriptures.
I am not an angry former JW, but I know the truth about the JW and while some think they are doing God's will I know they are not. Sorry. I feel sorrow and compassion for the JW and hope one day they will see the light and truly know God.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
wow, i haven't posted on here in a long time... i lurked, back in the winter of '00, and posted in early '01 a few times.
looking back on those posts, and other stuff written, it amazes me how much can change... i thought to integrate myself into this web community i'd tell some of my story.... i was not raised in the truth.
i fell in love with a jw boy when i was 20 and married him.
Moody,
Thanks for sharing. It is a refreshing breathe of fresh air to be able to be free. Glad you were able to find the truth for yourself.
Best wishes in your journey. Keep posting.
ps - I think jaysong is cute.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
interesting news article: http://web.star-telegram.com/content/fortworth/2002/01/10/dfw/news-011002-02.htm
Well, they certainly cannot point the finger at their friend the UN.
Or are they still pointing at the UN while trying to keep their enemy close in the guise of friendship.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
it has occurred to me that ive been here long enough and have met many of you whose company i really appreciate.
i see people come in since i have been here and am inspired and impressed at the courage they have for giving their stories, their experiences and the freedoms they now have paid for by a cost that only a cult survivor can really appreciate.. so with that inspiration, here is my story.... i have very little memory of before i was 5. i do remember christmas morning one year to wake up to a ton of toys and that was cool.
i remember having my stomach pumped once because i got into some kerosene and thought id pour myself a glass.
kenny,
Thanks for sharing. It is comforting to all of us here to hear from others. As someone said earlier, it reminds us we are not alone.
Keep on sharing.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
please,there are still x-dubs posting on this board that think they are free from the watchtower.
they say things like, "well it may not be the perfect truth, but they, (the wt) still teach good morals" etc.. remember we are talking about brainwashing here, & its a very tricky & insidious practice!.
i have devised a simple test.
Moman,
I understand what you are saying. However, I must agree with Skeptic. Asking black and white questions is trouble. Life cannot be judged as black and white. I tried it as a JW - I was raised a JW. In time, I realized that looking at everything as black or white - right or wrong - is problematic.
No one knows what another person is thinking or feeling. There are many people that are JW or even former JW who believe in their hearts they are doing what God wants them to do. Some of these people are good people who are truly trying, others are people who are drawn extremes, and others are on a power high enjoying the feelings of superiority.
For every bad person and bad deed there are good people and good deeds. Do not get me wrong, I am not supporting the JW. If I was still "borganized" I would not be able to see the good in those outside of the JW. Every religion has those who abuse it and those who do not abuse it.
As for Hilter, Hitler thought he was going mankind a favor and in his day due to the programming to hate outsiders many did not question what he was doing. Hilter tithing to the Catholic Church until the day he died although he killed his share of Catholics who did not fit his idea of the perfect person. Unfortunately, those who knew what was happening were brain washed into believing in the perfect human race. Others just could not believe that what they heard was happening was actually happening.
Looking at things as black and white is what creates situations such as Hitler. My way or no way is detrimental is society. This is what Hitler did regarding race and religion. This is what the JW are doing now just on a lessor level. This is what anyone who must have things in black and white is doing to society.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
just discovered this thread by going to who's who.. i guess i'll add my life story.. born and raised a dub, i didn't really mind being a witness but always had a secret desire to celebrate christmas, birthdays and halloween.
they always looked fun.. had a really fun time during the teen years, had some great friends and we did our share of partying, but never really got out of hand.
i was, for the most part, pretty good.
Tweetie Bird,
Thank you so much for your post. I was raised a JW too and appreciate what you are saying. I have accepted true Christian teachings and at times have to fight what the JW teach in my own head... sometimes I wonder if I will ever believe any particular teaching without the doubts.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
