Ha ha....
I keep my sense of humor - thats how!
No, seriously speaking, I am just considered very weak and very hurt from an event they all know was wrong that happened in our area.
People are extending me a long line of credit due to that. I think the hope is that I will heal but in the meantime I learned the real truth so there will be no healing in the direction of going back.
There HAS been healing in realizing this is a two bit organization full of hocus pocus and in getting over my shock and taking a deep breath and seeing who I can rescue while simultaneously using their own policies against them!
Those of you who have had to serve as elders have my deepest admiration and sympathy. It is a hell on earth job if you are trying to be a good one.