I have put that question off to one side for now.
I cannot cope with leaving the religion, the fall out from my uber duber family AND wrestling with an issue that has plagued man for centuries.
When I get all that down to a dull roar I will begin to look at other things such as eternity and God and so on.
I think this is the right way to go about it for me. I dont want any beliief system I set up to in any way be a "response" to having been raised a JW.
I dont like the idea of hanging my future on a reaction to a negative. (the JW religion)
When I first began participating on this site, I realized there is a formula that is supposed to be followed of leaving, poking fun at the religion, look to science and lastly, become an atheist.
That feels like pressure.
I want to have my own experience - something the JWs do not allow.
I do wish there were more opportunities for friendly discussions about the topic but the folks here that believe in God are pretty quiet and the atheists are as zealous as the JWs.
NOT all of course, some are very respectful and patient but that doesnt seem to have been the waters I waded in to each time I tried to enter a discussion.
So I just quit.
That is when it dawned on me not to try to do it all at once. Take my time.