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  "Once Upon a Time..."

  by LucidSky in

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  i had a fantasy once.

  it wasn't so bizarre.

  i'm certain that most people have wished that they would never have to die.

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  IamI

  Rob,

  I know what you are talking about. From the sounds of it you have given up all belief in a life after death, but not all hope. Don't give up hope; hope is what keeps us alive; keeps us going. I have resigned myself to the fact that I will probably die in "this system of things" but would be more than happy if God decides to intervene before then.

  To be perfectly honest, the silence of God in response to my prayers bothers me more than a little. I found myself searching for proof of a spirit world watching Pet Psychiatrist! For some reason I felt that proving a spirit world existed, proved that God existed.

  Almost every decision that I have made in life has been based on how God would view it and now I find it difficult to make decisions. I have never had the selfish point of view of "I'll be good if you give me everlasting life and paradise"; I always viewed that as a "nice to have" extra; I felt as though I owed God my loyalty, imperfect as it was but did not deserve a reward.

  All the same, I find that there many reasons to believe and deep down I do believe. Too many things in the Bible become totally illogical if it isn't true. I believe it is true and that there is a God who cares and that I do have a hope, but I don't understand much of the rest in the end!

  I am I

  P.S: What does one have to do to start a topic on this forum?
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  Does being called an 'apostate' upset you?

  by wholewheat in

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  do all of you ex-jehovah's witnesses get upset when you are called an apostate?

  you all call each other apostates, so why should you all get upset if i call you apostates?

  if you don't like being called 'apostate', what title would you prefer?

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  IamI

  I have never been called an apostate, yet by the societies definition of an apostate I would be one.

  I must say that it does bother me when they say smugly that I have been "influenced by apostates" or when they say I am "doubting" or have "questions". This implicitly puts them at a higher level since they feel that they have all the answers. I hate to think what my family is telling all my old friends and other members of the family, but I can imagine.

  The worst part is that when they finally realize that they were wrong and the "apostates" were right it changes nothing. Once an apostate, always an apostate.

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