Wow!!! I can't tell you how pleased I am hearing from ALL of you. I feel better already, just knowing there are real people out there going through or have gone through this same pain. Thank You ALL from the bottom of my heart! I am excited to get to know all of you. :)
My story is a bit of a strange one. I will try to explain it the best I can.
I was actually trying to start a post to you all lastnight but right as I was typing.... MY mom called me. It's been 3 weeks since I heard from my mom. I was so nervous to answer, but I just wanted to hear my Mom's voice. We talked for about an hour. Alot of crying. Alot of preaching and begging to have me start another bible study to inform myself of the "LOST" spritual food over the years. I told her I was not second guessing Jehovah, I am second guessing the "organization." I told her I could never be a part of it because of the research I found on it and the fact that I am experiencing this "shunning" has done me in for good. Just the "shunning" in and of itself has justified for me my feelings on the whole religion. I was told by her that they are attending the convention this weekend and that she will call me on sunday. great! right after the convention, I thought.
So... Just so you all know. I was NOT "disfellowhshipped" They just decided it was TIME to start shunning me. I have not been to a meeting in years! It all started from my sister who is 9 years older than me who started pioneering a few months ago. One day 4 weeks ago, She sent me an email about the United Nations new slogan. Can you guess what it is??? It's peace and security. My sister was chatting with me online and asked me what I thought about the email she sent me??? I respectfully replied..." I have my own thoughts and feelings on it." I did not explain to her my thoughts on it, I just simply stated that I had feelings on the matter. That night she went to her elders and BOOM! I was branded "APOSTATE" and dangerous. by Men who don't even know me. Just to clear up a few things... I got married at 19 years old to an AMAZING man who is NOT a Jehovah's Witness. We got married so young because once again I did it for my parents. He and I were planning on getting married anyhow but not that soon. We had a Death in the family at the time. My dearest sister was killed in a plane crash ... Alaska Airlnes flight 261 off the coast of california in january of 2000. Needless to say, It really hit us hard. So we married and started a family within 3 months of the crash. I started celebrating Holidays after our daughter was born. Not for my benefit, but my husbands family traditions. So I was fading away from the "truth" slowly and quietly. My parents knew of me partaking in holidays more and more throughout the years, but they just didn't really say anything because I was NOT going to meetings and I was not even involved with any congregation. So.. because I told my sister that I had my own thoughts on the UNITED NATIONS new slogan, And the fact that they decided to hone in on the holidays all the sudden... I have been labled an apostate and dangerous. So no official DISfellowshipping, but officially shunned.
How is this love?
once again... Thank you all for taking the time to read my story. It's a very short version of it of course. I look forward to hearing from all you amazing people.