Darkknight757

Joined

• started 49 topics
• posted 763 times   see topics posted on
• send a message

Posts by Darkknight757

• 
  24

  General health after learning TTATT

  by Darkknight757 in

  1. social
  2. physical

  4 months ago i was conducting the watchtower study along with a long list of responsibilities that come with being an elder in a very goofy congregation.

  during this time my health was going down hill.

  i've always had a low blood pressure,(102/65 or abouts) but for the past year it had creeped up to 135/90 range.. so 2 months ago after learning ttatt, i'm still considered an elder because the brothers won't let me step down, but i haven't done anything in that time except comment once at a meeting a few weeks ago.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  Darkknight757

  That's some story burnedout. Glad to hear you were able to step down and get out before it was too late!
• 
  24

  General health after learning TTATT

  by Darkknight757 in

  1. social
  2. physical

  4 months ago i was conducting the watchtower study along with a long list of responsibilities that come with being an elder in a very goofy congregation.

  during this time my health was going down hill.

  i've always had a low blood pressure,(102/65 or abouts) but for the past year it had creeped up to 135/90 range.. so 2 months ago after learning ttatt, i'm still considered an elder because the brothers won't let me step down, but i haven't done anything in that time except comment once at a meeting a few weeks ago.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  Darkknight757

  Interesting article Brokeback. Perhaps it was just coincidence then. I'll have to say that the day-to-day stress of life has been much relieved since knowing what is really going on though.
• 
  24

  General health after learning TTATT

  by Darkknight757 in

  1. social
  2. physical

  4 months ago i was conducting the watchtower study along with a long list of responsibilities that come with being an elder in a very goofy congregation.

  during this time my health was going down hill.

  i've always had a low blood pressure,(102/65 or abouts) but for the past year it had creeped up to 135/90 range.. so 2 months ago after learning ttatt, i'm still considered an elder because the brothers won't let me step down, but i haven't done anything in that time except comment once at a meeting a few weeks ago.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  Darkknight757

  4 months ago I was conducting the Watchtower study along with a long list of responsibilities that come with being an elder in a very goofy congregation. During this time my health was going down hill. I've always had a low blood pressure,(102/65 or abouts) but for the past year it had creeped up to 135/90 range.

  So 2 months ago after learning TTATT, I'm still considered an elder because the brothers won't let me step down, but I haven't done anything in that time except comment once at a meeting a few weeks ago. No field service or elder meetings.

  Anyways, the wife and I went to the Dr. and what do you know?!! Blood pressure back to 102/69.

  So has anyone else experienced better health after mentally/physically leaving the Org?
• 
  47

  Hello, this is my first post

  by noralee in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  hello, this is my first post, i would like to introduce myself and say thank you to every one on this forum, you have been a lifeline to me these last few years.. i had been a jw for 30 years when i walked away a few years ago disgusted by the treatment victims of child abuse, domestic abuse and rape receive from the wtbts.. at first i thought it was a local problem, elders personal opinions, the way they handled the situations, imperfect men etc., until i checked out jehovahs witnesses and child abuse/domestic abuse online.

  that's when i realized they had the same modus operandi worldwide.

  that led me here, tbuo this forum, and then to crisis of conscience, jw facts, watchtower documents, jw survey, old watchtower literature and cd s, reading a couple of steve hassans books, and more recently exiting the jw cult.. the feelings of shock, betrayal, anger at the wtbts, angry with myself for being so gullible, depression, reflection, loneliness, have taken their toll.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  Darkknight757

  Welcome. It's great to hear your family is out too! Now you can truly live life!
• 
  28

  Another heavy load :Literature Cart Witnessing

  by RULES & REGULATIONS in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  jehovah's witnesses standing on a street corner publicly promoting the propaganda of the governing body!another ridiculous form of "forced loyalty" to jehovah.

  "dirty work" that the wtbts make witnesses go through.preaching work '' lite''.putting more heavy loads on members while the ''faithful and discreet slave'' preach from warm studios without the humiliation.

  what an embarrassment!.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  Darkknight757

  
  
• 
  20

  Reasons for NOT Returning

  by Saved_JW in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i left the watchtower in the winter of 2008. my first year out was by far the most difficult.

  i had every intention of returning to the watchtower for the very purpose of being able to speak with my friends and family.

  i had already concluded that the teachings were not the "truth" [after reading crisis of conscience] so coming back was more emotional then anything.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  Darkknight757

  Great post. I especially liked #2. I would imagine many put on an act at the hall but the reality is that they are someone else entirely.

  Part of the fun of waking up is self discovery.
• 
  28

  Another heavy load :Literature Cart Witnessing

  by RULES & REGULATIONS in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  jehovah's witnesses standing on a street corner publicly promoting the propaganda of the governing body!another ridiculous form of "forced loyalty" to jehovah.

  "dirty work" that the wtbts make witnesses go through.preaching work '' lite''.putting more heavy loads on members while the ''faithful and discreet slave'' preach from warm studios without the humiliation.

  what an embarrassment!.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  Darkknight757

  @ R&R

  The wife and I did the table a few times and we always liked it waaaay more than going d2d.

  Of course there are much better and more productive uses for time. If I was to pick the two, apathy witnessing would be the only way to go.
• 
  28

  Another heavy load :Literature Cart Witnessing

  by RULES & REGULATIONS in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  jehovah's witnesses standing on a street corner publicly promoting the propaganda of the governing body!another ridiculous form of "forced loyalty" to jehovah.

  "dirty work" that the wtbts make witnesses go through.preaching work '' lite''.putting more heavy loads on members while the ''faithful and discreet slave'' preach from warm studios without the humiliation.

  what an embarrassment!.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  Darkknight757

  Those at the hall I speak to about apathy witnessing really like it.

  The main reason? They don't have to talk to anybody. It's easy time for them.
• 
  8

  Gotta love the ministry. LOL.

  by Sabin in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  you know how you go to the mid-week meeting & it is all about field service, how you can improve, do more etc.

  do you remember how they would say things like..... "you get up brothers & you really don't feel like going out today, you look out of the window & the weathers just not good, then you look in the mirror & you say to yourself, i don't feel so good today.

  you know your looking for an excuse not to go cause it's tough to get motivated on your 1 day off.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  Darkknight757

  Landy hit the nail on the head. If you don't go out you get that dirty look from the other Elders like your diseased or something.

  This past weeks watchtower was real funny.

  That caption of the boy happily walking down the street with his dad.

  Dad probably just told him we are going on break. That's the only reason that kid could possibly be so happy. No kid I ever saw was that happy out in service.
• 
  33

  How do you tell your spouse you no longer believe in God?

  by Darkknight757 in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  so i was hoping to get some insight on this subject of telling your spouse that you no longer believe in god.

  for two people who have been jehovahs witnesses for 20 years together, talking about this seems to be real hard for me.

  i still pray with my wife before meals but that's about it.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  Darkknight757

  Anders Andersen3 hours ago

  Good point raised by some indeed, which I forgot to mention: be the best husband you can ever be.

  Help your wife with everything, but especially the JW stuff if she wants.

  Offer to join her for meetings, or drive her there if needed.

  Cook on meeting evening, and clean the house if she is going and you are not.

  It's possible your wife needs new reasons to continue loving you, so provide her with as many reasons as you can.

  Why? Because (depending on how in your wife is), you are about to destroy her world. You leave her all alone forever in paradise. All alone as a spiritual widow.

  She didn't sign up for this shit.

  And, if you suddenly don't love God anymore, what about maybe you suddenly leave her???

  She will feel insecure and need reassurance. This will be worse if she is born in....

  
  

  
  

  
  

  I've always done my best to support our family the best that I can by cooking/cleaning and doing nice things for her and now so more than ever because of the guilt I feel for telling her how I feel about the Wtbts. I think that has been a great help so she doesn't think that I'm abandoning her.