@ DY I see what your getting at but don't you feel in the slightest that you lying to yourself or maybe not living the way you'd actually Want to live?
It just seems like such a hard thing to stick with something that you know is wrong!!
I was away from meetings for a month and I was really feeling happy again, then my wife bucked a bit and so we went to two meetings in a row. The depression kicked back in and all the anger came rushing back. I hate that so many people are being mislead. It really pisses me off!!
I told her the other day that going to those meetings brought the depression back. She didn't know what to say.
You must be a mighty strong person mentally to be able to find good in something inherently evil.