I'm having trouble getting rid of that ingrained thought that life must have a purpose.
There's a duality right now in my mind. One part of my mind is like Scully, the other is like Mulder.* I want to be rational but I also want to believe.
I liked what Richard Dawkins said one time when asked about the "purpose" of life. He said something along the lines of, "It's a ridiculous question." EDIT: In looking for the quote, I couldn't find it. It was from the debate he had with that Cardinal on Q and A, but as I can't find the transcript, I don't want to misquote him.
What I like about Science is that when they don't know something, they just say they don't know. They don't fill in the gaps with comforting irrational tales.
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*This is a reference to the X-files, in case some are unfamiliar with U.S. popular culture of the 90's.