I believe in "I don't knows."
There's still a part of me that wants to believe in God - likely because it's so ingrained in my upbringing and psyche as a JW.
But the rational part of me is letting go. And at first, it was scary, upsetting and confusing. But now, the more I let go, the more a certain peace settles over my thoughts. Not believing is turning out more satisfying and peaceful than believing.
I had to come to terms with the fact that it's okay to not know. It's okay to not have the answers for every question.