Posts by will-be-apostate

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Girls are unpredictable, materialist, and use us, men, as a toy.

by will-be-apostate in

well, it seems like i am going to ruin the domination of raypublishers' topic at this section of the board.

:d. now back to the topic.

the last month i was trying to get "closer" to my classmates and to the others from my highschool.

will-be-apostate

james_woods, thank you, but there are other, less painfull methods to commit suicide. :P

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Girls are unpredictable, materialist, and use us, men, as a toy.

by will-be-apostate in

well, it seems like i am going to ruin the domination of raypublishers' topic at this section of the board.

:d. now back to the topic.

the last month i was trying to get "closer" to my classmates and to the others from my highschool.

will-be-apostate

Well, it seems like I am going to ruin the domination of RayPublishers' topic at this section of the board. :D

Now back to the topic. The last month I was trying to get "closer" to my classmates and to the others from my highschool. And by "closer" i mean bringing up our relationship from "he/she will die at armageddon anyway" perspective to the "lets spend some time and have fun". So this last friday a guy organized a party and asked me if I could go. They know about my situation and that my parents hardly allow me to go out with them. I told him that I it was useless even to ask my dad. However, by afternoon I changed my mind. I told my dad that there are these guys from the school and I am going to go and have a drink with them. He gave me the regular speech about how bad association is viewed by Jehovah etc. I listened, then left home in the evening.

It was all new for me, but I liked, although I felt like being a stranger there. The guys were and are cool, I could talk to them, laughed and so on. BUT I realized that I have got a serious issue related to how I should handle girls. If you read the thread when I wrote my situation in this step-mum, step-sister family you will understand me.

There was this girl, a classmate, hot and cute. She and her friend (also a girl) were asking me about my virginity 2 weeks ago. Than I felt hurt and humiliated by her, because I thought we were becoming friend, meanwhile she laughes about me. She told me that she wouldnt wanted to isnult me. She is the kind of girl who dates 25+ years old guys. But after that case I hardly spoke to her. At that party I took a seat nex to her. She wondered like everyone else that how on the earth I went to that party. I told her that I knew about her thoughts in connection with how innocent I am. She told me agian that she didnt wanted to hurt me, and that I shouldnt feel offensed. (AGAIN: it is not about the fact that she asked me about my virginity. There were other people in this planet who asked me as well. The way she treated the subject, it just felt bad from her.

There started to appear tear drops on her face. She said it was because of the smoke. She must have been telling me the truth. I mean, she had no reason to cry because she didnt seemed like feeling bad about anything, and thought it was only a joke. This is what she told me today at the school when I asked her why she seemed like crying. We talk now, make jokes, and makes me think that she like me, even though I know 100% doesnt, that way. I am sure, though, that she sympathizes me, god knows why.

I hate that I cant decide whether she likes me or not. It is evident that even if she would she wouldnt go out with me. I asked her if she was willing to go and drink something together. She said no. I really dont know how to date girls, do I? I always pick up the wrong one, and then suffer. I didnt wanted to say, but the wts got it right in this topic. I am not used to the wordly girls. If in the cong a girls stares at me many times, reacts positive if I touch her or something like that, then I can be 75% sure she would go for a date. But in the real world, everyone is flirting with everyone and girls are impossible to decode. I am tired of guessing what they think and reading from their reactions. I really had a bad day today. I am literally fear of being rejected. I fall in love too easy. I cant be just friend with a girl and joking around without having some romantical feelings toward her.

There is another girl. I got to know her at a morning when both of us were being late from the our first classes. She introduced herself, so did I, and since then every time we meet we kiss as friends (I have no idea what is the english word for it. It is a way of kissing but you give it on the face and not on the lips.) I wanted to ask her out today, but I cought a flue yesterday and my voice isnt that cool right now. Unfortunately on her facebook profile she is "in relation", so she may have already a boyfriend.

But lets say finally I find a girl, for instance her, and she is willing to go and drink something together. What will happen after? We have to do other things together, not just drinking a juice (juice isnt cool, is it?) and eat a pizza once in a while. I am really on the edge of depression. I need somebody who loves me, who hugs me, who appreciates me. I dont know how girls think about my phisical appearence but I do know that i am really skinny and also quite tall. I really dont know what to talk about, what to do together in order to not to bore her. I am also afraid of being humiliated, in case she rejects me. OTOH i am very curios about what she would say.

This life really sucks. What a pity armageddon wont kill me, and probably I need to survive more 40+ years in this universe. I am sorry for boring you with all these stuffs. I dont even know what was my intention when I started writing. Now I feel better, but still lost. I hate the Watchtower Bible and Tract society for making me such an antisocial being. I swear to god, that once I get out of my parents life I will put all my forces to destroy those retarded from Brooklyn. Amen.

ps. guys, i really need some advice and encouragement, but not lies. Thanks in advance :)

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Confused in choosing a career. What would be a better choice?

by will-be-apostate in

jw
friends

i had started a topic like this a few months ago but i thought it might be usefull to ask you again.

i really need advise from persons who live in the following countries: usa, canada, uk.

australia.

will-be-apostate

I really appreciate the contribution of all of you to this thread. You gave me "plenty of fantastic advice". :) I am not sure what the following months will bring, however I feel more determined. Billy you have a pm btw.

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Confused in choosing a career. What would be a better choice?

by will-be-apostate in

jw
friends

i had started a topic like this a few months ago but i thought it might be usefull to ask you again.

i really need advise from persons who live in the following countries: usa, canada, uk.

australia.

will-be-apostate

Thank you Talesin. You mentioned that university. I was google-ing about the loans and banks and they do give me loan once I am accepted to a university. Beside the tuition fees, how much money would I need to cover other costs while studying? I mean, for rent, food etc

By the end of the studie I would end up with a $200,000+ debt which needs to be paid back.

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Confused in choosing a career. What would be a better choice?

by will-be-apostate in

jw
friends

i had started a topic like this a few months ago but i thought it might be usefull to ask you again.

i really need advise from persons who live in the following countries: usa, canada, uk.

australia.

will-be-apostate

Oh god, I am freaking incorrect when using conditional tenses :D

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Confused in choosing a career. What would be a better choice?

by will-be-apostate in

jw
friends

i had started a topic like this a few months ago but i thought it might be usefull to ask you again.

i really need advise from persons who live in the following countries: usa, canada, uk.

australia.

will-be-apostate

Thanks for the replies. The problem is that I cannot afford to study in Canada, UK, or USA because I as a foreigner cant get loan. Obiously I dont have the $100,000+...

I dont feel that dedicated to medicine, if I did it it wouldnt be because I like it, but because of the money. I dont say that there is no part in medicine that I like. The subjects are interesting, chemistry, biology, anatomy. I just couldnt do even an injection. And the amount of year of studies. And if i cant do anything with my degree if I get it here, then I totally forget about it. BUT, I could earn a degree in engineering or dentistry here, in Romania (here we go, I revealed myself now :D).

Its true that many degrees dont transfer so well internationally. --that is why i dont know what to do, what to choose. If i stay and become a chemical engineer, for instance, I will have a hard time getting it recognized and becoming licenced. Maybe I will go for dentistry and if cant get in, will go to an engineer college.

Let`s say I have done it. I have a BSc in something. I moved to Canada, am cleaning windows. Could I apply for an MSc program? Would they tell me that first I have to get a BSc? Wouldn`t they recognized my BSc that I got here, in RO? MSc last only 2-3 years.

So, if you know a profession that i could do and is transferable to there, tell me. To tell you the truth I thought that it is easy to emigrate and get a good job. I thought i would easily get a degree in something here, then move and work there... Guess what? It is just a dream. BTW, in Romania resident doctors have a monthly income of $250 - $500, doctors who have experience slightly earn more than 1500-2000 . They are not starving but such a salary after studing 10+ years.

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Confused in choosing a career. What would be a better choice?

by will-be-apostate in

jw
friends

i had started a topic like this a few months ago but i thought it might be usefull to ask you again.

i really need advise from persons who live in the following countries: usa, canada, uk.

australia.

will-be-apostate

I had started a topic like this a few months ago but I thought it might be usefull to ask YOU again. I really need advise from persons who live in the following countries: USA, Canada, UK. Australia. But any piece of information is good from anyone who can help me.

I am in the last year of high school and will graduate in July, 2013. I live in Eastern Europe. My aims are:

to go to college/university
to emigrate to one of the above listed countries
to get a job in the profession I studied

My question is: HOW? I could attend to medical school but I saw that it is very difficult and long process to validate my degree in any of the countries I would like to move to. I will be 30+ when I will get my first salary.

Dentistry is a bit less difficult to get a licence but still IS for me, and I am not sure if I could do that work all my life.

Maybe engineering or... I don`t know. What would be a degree that could be easily get recognized, and I could start working at least at age 26 in one of those countries? And make a decent living, of course...

I know that the best would be to get in a college/university of that country but financially it is impossible.

Veterinaer, chemical engineer, dentist, or what else?? I am very dissapointed and don`t know anymore if there is any use of vasting 6+ years of the best years of my life and then not accomplishing any of my aims.

Please if you knoiw a way, a person who went through this, please answer then. Maybe you can help to bring this big decision in my life. My jw membership doesn`t count. I don`t give a *** to the policies and the elders know it, fortunately.

Thank you :)

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Now please! Is there anyone who is willing to skype with me?

by will-be-apostate in

i took this question weeks ago in the forum but received no answer.

i know you dont know me and thus are suspicious and aware but there is nothing in me that you should be aware of.

i want to have a few conversations in english to improve my talking skills.

will-be-apostate

Thank you for all your answers. Unfortunately it seems like I am not going to do anything else this year but learn maths and science full time at school and at home. Thus I don`t have time anymore, but thank you for your offers :D

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Now please! Is there anyone who is willing to skype with me?

by will-be-apostate in

i took this question weeks ago in the forum but received no answer.

i know you dont know me and thus are suspicious and aware but there is nothing in me that you should be aware of.

i want to have a few conversations in english to improve my talking skills.

will-be-apostate

Heartofaboy, if you really have got a heart of a boy then you shouldn`t feel being offended :) Why don`t you set up an account?

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Now please! Is there anyone who is willing to skype with me?

by will-be-apostate in

i took this question weeks ago in the forum but received no answer.

i know you dont know me and thus are suspicious and aware but there is nothing in me that you should be aware of.

i want to have a few conversations in english to improve my talking skills.

will-be-apostate

Rubadub, I have no clue what your talking about. Nevermind, it is just my stupidity...

Cagefighter, I have sent you a pm.

Cedars, I can understand your worries. :D