Yes, it is worse if you take the lead and teach this shit to others when YOU don't believe it, yourself!!!
I will occasionally attend meetings with my wife and I mean “occasionally”. I told her this is the reason I can no longer engage in the ministry. I just cannot bring myself to spread a message I absolutely do not believe in. I will go with her to Kingdom Hall for supportvbut that is where it ends. She had a hard time with this, always having to answer the awkward inquisitions of the brothers and sisters but now she is used to it, not happy but used to it. If I ever go in service again I will be distributing the “Do Jehovah’s Witnesses Have the Truth” pamphlet from the jwfacts website.