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Hi there, welcome aboard. you will find some kind and practical helpers here and a few nutters as well. Hmm well thats got me covered.
The line of your posting that does it for me is this; " I have recently starting addressing some of the psychological trauma of my childhood,"
You are now on the road to recovery and success in life. ie being able to undertake pursuits a sport, and interest a creative hobby (there are zillions) without being subject to wt guilt trips being dumped on you.
Reading? I have recently completed reading the works of Conan Doyle "Sherlock Holmes" and delighted in the wonderful English it was written in. I have also completed the huge work "7 Pillars of Wisdom" by TE Lawrence. (Lawrence of Arabia). Reading.. I love it and when i entered college at mature age my reading paid off in lots of ways. I am reading the Av of the Bible now for the third time and reading this archaic English makes you read not skim over it as you might a newspaper.
It appalled me when I would hear young ones doing a reading at the kh and hear them make guess at it, mispronunciations of words and names, or use guessed completely wrong words along with silly laugh from the audience. Appalled? because it was enforcing ignorance. and also meant they hadnt practised the piece but that is another matter.
The list of conditions you posted remind me of the way of life some in the T ran by and who I regarded as fanatics. One of whom was named at offender at the CARC.
A fanatic is one who wont change his mind and who never changes the subject. (Churchill)
Thankyou for your posting here, keep them up,
Live long prosper in wisdom health and love.