Welcome to the board, Lauralisa.
You've been through so much and I'm glad you found us. You mentioned that your husband got custody or your children. Did you get them back after you left the borg? Just curious.
Also, concerning depression-I think just being a witness is too much for some people to handle and I have seen sooooo many witnesses affected by depression. There is the constant guilt trip imposed upon those who do not measure up spiritually. I know there are some congregations headed up by some really nice elders that do not try to impose guilt on the regular publishers, but the majority of congregations that I have been in has been just the opposite.
I think it is especially hard on the men in the congregation that are not MS's or elders. My husband use to leave every meeting with a feeling of being a spiritual loser because he figured that no matter how hard he tried, he would NEVER measure up.
It is also hard on the sisters with unbelieving mates because they get put in the same boat as the men, because they are now the spiritual head.
I would love to see just one member of the GB go work a full time job, then come home and get dinner on the table, bathe the kids, finds the socks, shoes, ties, etc. and not only get to the meeting but be prepared. They wouldn't last a week even in their younger days. The only way it works is if you run your household like a gestapo and then your kids will rebel against the borg on their own.
No thanks! I've had enough guilt put on me to last a lifetime.
Anyway, welcome.