I was a pioneer. I was sincere about wanting to help people ... if they were seeking it.
I knocked on doors out of place of love for my fellow man.
However, I noticed some of my "brothers" and "sisters" lacked that sincerity. They either were there just to count time, to win arguments, or because they felt forced to. Some almost treated it like war. Us vs them. I foolishly tried to make them find "joy in the work" and to care about finding true "sheeplike ones".
Glad I found my way out and am not spreading the nonsense around anymore.