You miss and love your family
you stood your ground but none followed.
i live inside for the sake of my family so I can half understand your dilemma
many of us say we would die for our family. Would we go back to the WTS for our family?
if you believe you can mentally handle the duality and be happy then who could fault you for going back? Don't look for the approval of outsiders for your decision, you must give yourself permission and approval to live that way and be happy about it. If you can then you'll be successful, if you can't then you should not go back
good luck my friend
woj