I wonder if he is honest was he more happy physically in? Would he have had a happier life staying JWlite and mentally out.
His book reveals what he was like when he was, he escaped to Croatia only to be in front of a branch representative and blackmail them (according to his words) of course he wanted to stay in, he could hide all his indiscretions if he was allowed to stay an elder. Unfortunately, his ego got in the way, and even the watchtower had enough of him. Let's remember he did not record his judicial, having a branch representative there would have been an ideal opportunity to record the judicial.
Unless of course, there were things Lloyd was hiding and he did not want them revealed. And as for being a happy family within the twuff. Even an elder mentioned how Lloyd used his wife as a doormat. Even Marc will tell you an example of how Lloyd forgot his family duties to barge into the limelight.
Everything he has revealed himself, so if he already knows all this, then he is self-aware enough to realize that he needs to change. He has had over 10 years to do this, but not once has he done any self-reflection at all.