To break free from addiction one has to first come to terms they have an addiction. I have what you can call an addictive personality, and I am now self-aware enough to know when addiction takes hold, and it can come in many forms.
Thisismein1972
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It's been a long 9 years Lloyd Evans / John Cedars (continued)
by Simon inuh oh, looks like the mega thread gave up the ghost, so while i investigate / fix it just continue the discussion here .... it's been a long 9 years lloyd evans / john cedars.
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It's been a long 9 years Lloyd Evans / John Cedars (continued)
by Simon inuh oh, looks like the mega thread gave up the ghost, so while i investigate / fix it just continue the discussion here .... it's been a long 9 years lloyd evans / john cedars.
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Thisismein1972
If this is causing him so much trauma, then he should seek help to come to terms with that trauma, not revisit it every day. Some people make videos as a form of therapy to come to some sort of acceptance. Apparently, Lloyd does it to stay the perpetual victim.
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It's been a long 9 years Lloyd Evans / John Cedars (continued)
by Simon inuh oh, looks like the mega thread gave up the ghost, so while i investigate / fix it just continue the discussion here .... it's been a long 9 years lloyd evans / john cedars.
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Just posted on Patreon. Notice no mention of a certain court case.
Hi folks!
It's been a while since I've given you an update on developments behind the scenes, so here goes!
February has been a slow month for me because I've been battling a weirdly-lengthy cold-flu virus which has majorly impacted my productivity. I was really hoping to get a video out today (i.e. right at the end of the month) but unfortunately despite my best efforts it just hasn't worked out the way I wanted. I'm therefore going to try to hit the ground running in March and focus on clearing some more of the backlog of videos requested by my amazing patrons and YouTube channel members.
Despite setbacks it has still been a relatively productive start to 2024. I have assembled a new JW Watch team of passionate and knowledgeable fellow ex-JWs who can collaborate and advise on future projects. I've also resumed work on the Second Edition of The Reluctant Apostate, which will be made available simultaneously in English and German! So far we on schedule to release both versions (and hopefully, an audiobook!) in early 2025.
Since January 1 the channel has grown by around 800 subscribers, which is great news and definitely motivates me to continue!
It's still challenging to settle into a rhythm after closing my production company in October. I obviously no longer have a video editor so a lot more time, effort and thought needs to go into each upload even though there are fewer of them. For now I am just doing my best to avoid burnout by churning out content according to my capacity in terms of time and mental health.
In the coming weeks I will be revamping my store as I think merch is a really cool way for people to support the channel while getting something back in return. I have also been giving some thought to the Patreon/YouTube channel member tiers and how they can be streamlined. If you are a patron/member and there are specific rewards that you would really like to see made available, or any areas in which I could improve as a content creator, please comment below as I am very interested in your feedback.
For now I just want to sincerely thank all of you who take an interest in my channel, especially the 443 of you currently supporting it as patrons and channel members. It's very difficult to keep dipping into my religious experience - a source of profound personal trauma - to produce resources that will help people escape abusive cults. But knowing I have the support of so many of you is extremely heartening and makes my work significantly easier! Thank you!
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It's been a long 9 years Lloyd Evans / John Cedars (continued)
by Simon inuh oh, looks like the mega thread gave up the ghost, so while i investigate / fix it just continue the discussion here .... it's been a long 9 years lloyd evans / john cedars.
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He can't move on & do other things or another job. No wonder he's depressed and has to be on meds & drink
This hits the nail in the coffin (pun intended 😂) What can he do, all he has done since leaving (thrown out) is "activism" he is unemployable and I can't imagine he will be able to get a good job in Croatia. He cannot sell himself as a content creator as he had people to do that for him. He can clean windows I suppose, but he'll have competition by the JW's in Croatia as it does seem to be a niche market captured by the JW's.
I suppose his loyal followers will blindly keep him going with free money, but that means he will have to keep making token videos. It's a vicious circle, one that he will detest but for him a necessary evil.
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It's been a long 9 years Lloyd Evans / John Cedars (continued)
by Simon inuh oh, looks like the mega thread gave up the ghost, so while i investigate / fix it just continue the discussion here .... it's been a long 9 years lloyd evans / john cedars.
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Thisismein1972
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It's been a long 9 years Lloyd Evans / John Cedars (continued)
by Simon inuh oh, looks like the mega thread gave up the ghost, so while i investigate / fix it just continue the discussion here .... it's been a long 9 years lloyd evans / john cedars.
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Notice how he's has used an English version of this book. I thought it was from his in laws who I would imagine are Croatian and will speak and read their native tongue. I will Hazzard a guess even his children can speak Croatian, unless of course he banned them from speaking Croatian.
Come on Lloyd, we know you are exploiting your daughters for more money. Cynical propaganda at it's worst.
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It's been a long 9 years Lloyd Evans / John Cedars (continued)
by Simon inuh oh, looks like the mega thread gave up the ghost, so while i investigate / fix it just continue the discussion here .... it's been a long 9 years lloyd evans / john cedars.
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Thisismein1972
I will correct the above statement. Lloyds wishes. He forced his wife to leave, I think if it wasn't for Lloyd's strongarming his wife would still be in the truff. Obviously he doesn't yield the power he had over his wife as he did before and he's trying desperately to take back control.
If they do go back, it is game over for Lloyd, he will have no one, but he only has himself to blame.
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It's been a long 9 years Lloyd Evans / John Cedars (continued)
by Simon inuh oh, looks like the mega thread gave up the ghost, so while i investigate / fix it just continue the discussion here .... it's been a long 9 years lloyd evans / john cedars.
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So here's my thoughts on the gey day thing.
He has mentioned before that he is not sexually compatible with his ex wife.
He has dyed his hair a very gay blond.
He does have a very feminine way about him, just look at his videos and his actions.
The way he acts and the angst he seems to go through suggests he is hiding something and feels the need to overcompensate.
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It's been a long 9 years Lloyd Evans / John Cedars (continued)
by Simon inuh oh, looks like the mega thread gave up the ghost, so while i investigate / fix it just continue the discussion here .... it's been a long 9 years lloyd evans / john cedars.
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his family is in the clique
They must have money then. That's what I realized, those who have money make it to elder status.
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It's been a long 9 years Lloyd Evans / John Cedars (continued)
by Simon inuh oh, looks like the mega thread gave up the ghost, so while i investigate / fix it just continue the discussion here .... it's been a long 9 years lloyd evans / john cedars.
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Thisismein1972
Universal Credit.
Whoops Sorry I made a mistake, or was it a Freudian slip?!
For this reason, coupled with the fact that there are people over here who he would not want to encounter, and there may yet be legal difficulties for him if he settles back here, I really do not believe he would return to the UK permanently unless it was completely unavoidable.
Something I believe too. He would have already moved back by now.