A huge reason why I never liked him was that I absolutely despised the ones in power who thought they could wield it in the JWs. I was present at a Ted Jaracz talk once and I thought he was quite the prick.
I was evicted from a flat due to it being riddled with dampness, the flat belonged to an elder, when I stood up to him he really did not like it his narsacism really did shine through. By the way, he did not go through the proper Authoritative channels to evict me because he knew he did not have a leg to stand on, he used two elders to evict me.
Why do I mention this? this was the start of my awakening back in 2014. When I had settled in my new place I started looking at the apostate, satan driven YouTube, I came across Marc and Cora, their story resonated with my experience, and then the YouTube algorithm recommended John Cedars. It was his I am being shunned by my father video, even his thumbnail gave me the creeps. I ignored this though and had a few interactions with him which culminated in a Christmas Day battle on Facebook as featured in one of JW Primetime videos.
My experience with that elder and a pioneer and of course, life experience with rather shaky parents has given me a spider-sense, I know someone is a wrong un as soon as I see them these days, and back then I should have trusted my instinct but did not.