Posts by Esmeralda001

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Feeling rejected

by Esmeralda001 in

just a little disclaimer: english isn't my first language (i'm from france) thus the poor writing skills.here is the situation: i'm not a jw.

however, i'm in the process of becoming one.

in fact, i'm studying with the jw's, and i'll proceed to become an unbaptized publisher as soon as i finish the first book.to make a long story short i was introduced to the truth when i was 18een.

Esmeralda001

" it has been said from the WT that even married persons should not hold hands in the hall, nor should one hug the person of the opposite sex"

wow!! It's getting out of control!!! :o

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Feeling rejected

by Esmeralda001 in

just a little disclaimer: english isn't my first language (i'm from france) thus the poor writing skills.here is the situation: i'm not a jw.

however, i'm in the process of becoming one.

in fact, i'm studying with the jw's, and i'll proceed to become an unbaptized publisher as soon as i finish the first book.to make a long story short i was introduced to the truth when i was 18een.

Esmeralda001

@ cook my socks

"You don't seem ready to make the commitment"

would you commit to a religion without knowing what you are getting yourself into?

"You love JW's or you don't"

Do I love Jehovah God? Yes absolutely (otherwise I wouldn't be enduring this mess). Do I love *JW's*? Well it depends on the individual.

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Feeling rejected

by Esmeralda001 in

just a little disclaimer: english isn't my first language (i'm from france) thus the poor writing skills.here is the situation: i'm not a jw.

however, i'm in the process of becoming one.

in fact, i'm studying with the jw's, and i'll proceed to become an unbaptized publisher as soon as i finish the first book.to make a long story short i was introduced to the truth when i was 18een.

I figured that switching congregation would give me the opportunity to start over again. Although there's no garantee that i'm going to become a JW (yes i'm still investigating), moving to another congro will facilitate my integration. The congro i'm thinking of is mainly composed of eldery people and mature couples. I can't be a treat to these people. I won't be a problem for no family. The members will just see my as a weird bird at worst. There isn't no single brothers , So I won't have to worry about being someone's stumbling block.

Again I'm just here to do what God requires me to do. I'm not asking anyone anything. I don't mind not being invited to JW events. I don't mind not being friend with the brothers and sisters. I just want a peacefull environnement where I can find God and deepen my knowledge of the bible without all the drama.

77

Feeling rejected

by Esmeralda001 in

just a little disclaimer: english isn't my first language (i'm from france) thus the poor writing skills.here is the situation: i'm not a jw.

however, i'm in the process of becoming one.

in fact, i'm studying with the jw's, and i'll proceed to become an unbaptized publisher as soon as i finish the first book.to make a long story short i was introduced to the truth when i was 18een.

Esmeralda001

@ A.proclaimer

merci pour cette réponse. Je continuerai de progresser dans mes recherches avant de poser un geste irréversible. En attendant d'en arriver à une conclusion, je demanderai à être transferrer de congrégation, car cet environnement m'est insupportable. Je vous tiendrai au courant.

bisous, bisous.

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Feeling rejected

by Esmeralda001 in

just a little disclaimer: english isn't my first language (i'm from france) thus the poor writing skills.here is the situation: i'm not a jw.

however, i'm in the process of becoming one.

in fact, i'm studying with the jw's, and i'll proceed to become an unbaptized publisher as soon as i finish the first book.to make a long story short i was introduced to the truth when i was 18een.

Esmeralda001

Hi guys,

I just want to give you a quite update. The scrutiny which i'm the object of hasn't stopped. It's quite the contrary. From the last week to today, something must have occurred because they're watching me more than ever. Plus today an incident occurred which I think i'll get in trouble for: I attended the theocratic school earlier this evening. During the song I went to the rest room. On my way back to the main hall I encountered the presiding-elder's son who was heading towards the restroom. Since he (along with his mother and his 4 sisters) has been shunning me for months now, I try to avoid any awkwardness by not acknowledge his presence which I failed to do because he padded me on the shoulder telling me that it was nice to see again. Then He asked what was up with me. I didn't have the chance to reply when his oldest sister emerged from out of nowhere. I could see the discomfort in his gesture. He was acting all guilty yet we haven't done anything that could bring shame upon God's name (where doesn't it say in the bible that is forbidden to speak with someone who isn't not a JW?). It was a very awkward situation... I feel like i'm walking on eggshell. Hopefully the sister won't report the incident to her parents... And if she does report it, I hope the brother will have the honesty to say that he was the one who introduced the conversation.

77

Feeling rejected

by Esmeralda001 in

just a little disclaimer: english isn't my first language (i'm from france) thus the poor writing skills.here is the situation: i'm not a jw.

however, i'm in the process of becoming one.

in fact, i'm studying with the jw's, and i'll proceed to become an unbaptized publisher as soon as i finish the first book.to make a long story short i was introduced to the truth when i was 18een.

Esmeralda001

@ Truthexplored: Let's say I get baptised, and then get disfellowship for joining another christian faith, how could it possibly affect me? I mean I have no family or friends in the org and (I have a few acquitances, but they're obviously not my friends which is fine for me). I won't even consider coming back. I've noticed that the members who tend to come back are the ones who have left their family members in the org. They don't want to lose the only friends and family they've ever known so they compromise. Someone who has nothing to loose except for their name (wich in my case has already been spoiled as you can tell from my post) can leave the org. with no real consequences. This person won't loose (especially if they never fitted in or were never invited anywhere in the first place). I've witnessed a member being shunned after they announced publically that she was no longer a JW. It was a very sad day. Everybody was griefing. She got reinstated a year an a half afterwards. It's typical case.

77

Feeling rejected

by Esmeralda001 in

just a little disclaimer: english isn't my first language (i'm from france) thus the poor writing skills.here is the situation: i'm not a jw.

however, i'm in the process of becoming one.

in fact, i'm studying with the jw's, and i'll proceed to become an unbaptized publisher as soon as i finish the first book.to make a long story short i was introduced to the truth when i was 18een.

Esmeralda001

I'm going to take advantage of the fact that i'm not yet committed to the religion to ask my study conductor to give me some more explanation about the false prophecies, the WT's affiliation with the united nation and the new light thing . I understand that it really is a serious matter and I won't be rushing into baptism without having the full picture. It isn't in my interest to let my study instructor know what I have been up to lately so i'll try to be discrete about me visiting "apostasic website" (like french jw like to call it). I need to gather info from both parties so that i'm able to fully understand what it is all about.

Thank you very much for the support guys. I will keep you updated.

77

Feeling rejected

by Esmeralda001 in

just a little disclaimer: english isn't my first language (i'm from france) thus the poor writing skills.here is the situation: i'm not a jw.

however, i'm in the process of becoming one.

in fact, i'm studying with the jw's, and i'll proceed to become an unbaptized publisher as soon as i finish the first book.to make a long story short i was introduced to the truth when i was 18een.

Esmeralda001

"Once you get in you must marry a brother, not just a brother, but one with good stand. What gonna happen if you reject somebody who pursue you? Think through everything before taking any action, it's easy way in hard way out."
Even if I were to get baptised tomorrow, they wouldn't expect me to get married any time soon, for I would be considered spiritually immature. Anyways, there is no way i'm going to marry a JW men. From what I understand from some of your storries , some of these men are tyrants. Plus the jw dating system is a big whole mess. I refuse to be stuck with someone I barely know. Marriage is a personal choice. The elders cannot conceal a sister for not wanting to pursue a courtship with a brother, as there is no scriptures saying that mariage is mandatory. I want to remain independent so that I can take care of my parents. Dating and getting married is big No-No for me.

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Feeling rejected

by Esmeralda001 in

just a little disclaimer: english isn't my first language (i'm from france) thus the poor writing skills.here is the situation: i'm not a jw.

however, i'm in the process of becoming one.

in fact, i'm studying with the jw's, and i'll proceed to become an unbaptized publisher as soon as i finish the first book.to make a long story short i was introduced to the truth when i was 18een.

Esmeralda001

Why don't you involve yourself in Judaism then, that's where this God originated after all.
true chistians are required to preach as it is mentioned in Mat.24:14

77

Feeling rejected

by Esmeralda001 in

just a little disclaimer: english isn't my first language (i'm from france) thus the poor writing skills.here is the situation: i'm not a jw.

however, i'm in the process of becoming one.

in fact, i'm studying with the jw's, and i'll proceed to become an unbaptized publisher as soon as i finish the first book.to make a long story short i was introduced to the truth when i was 18een.

Esmeralda001

I just had a look at the website you guys told me about (jwfacts), and to be quite honest with you my heart is aching. I feel betrayed and lost . If the JWs don't have the truth, who has it?? How can I worship Jehovah? Something really bad happened to me this summEr (I don't want to go through the details because i'm still recovering). I was going through a difficult time, and God helped me getting on my feet. I felt his presence in presence in my life. I know I might sound foolish but I really think Jehovah God is real. Words are not powerful enough to describe how GOOD he has been to me!!!! I have to make him a very important part of my life. I really want to serve Jah even if that means that I have to be affiliated with a strange group of people... I'm not trying to have a close relationship with the members of the organization by no means. I'm well aware of the love bombing part. I also understand that I might be seen as a bad association to some. I don't expect everybody to get along with me, nor do I want to get invited to JW events. I actually think it's best for me to keep my contact with the brothers and sister at the bare minimum. Like mentioned above, i'm a quiet introverted person and I don't like people getting their nose in my business. The only thing that I demand is to be treated with some respect at the kingdome hall. If the members of the org want to limit their interactions with me outside the hall, that doesn't concern me.

As for the elder's wife I was talking about, she is well known for her bratty attitude. Yet everybody turns a blind eye on it... Why?! She shunned an entire family just because her younger daughter (age :19) has had a beef at school with another young sister. I remember her being particularly spiteful towards me at the last convention. I was sitting on a bench in the parc reading a book and enjoying my sandwich. It's was during the break. Her son saw that I was alone, sat next to me, and started to cheat-chat with me. When the elderette saw him, she yelled at him to go back to the assembly hall, she gave me a dirty look, and then walked away. She is very wrong if she thinks i'm after her son. First of all he is the one who always try to introduce a conversation (never the other way around). And the last thing I want to do is to date a 26 years old man who is unable to stand for himself. What I find weird is that sometimes the elderette will have her older daughter (age: 28) to ask me questions about my education and my job. Why would you give some much attention to a person that you don't like anyway? I'm so tired of being suspected that I started to wear my mother's engagement ring. It went to my ears that some brother from another congro asked the elders if I was a suitable choice for a courtship. They said no... Hopefully with a ring on a my finger, I won't be the center of their gossip anymore.