When i was in i was 100% convinced id be sent to prison one day for my faith. The great tribulation and all that. I actually looked forward to it. A chance to prove to Jehovah and everyone else how strong my faith was.
However... my child being born really made me re-think a lot of things. I remember thinking there was no way i'd refuse her a blood transfusion if thats what doctors said she needed. Nor would i let her be taken off me during "the great tribulation" like the Nazi's did with witnesses. Made me see that i actually loved someone more than Jehovah. That was a real wake up for me. 2 years later i start lurking on here.