Welcome!
I was struck by what you said about sometimes having to be dishonest when talking to people about the Witness religion. You felt you had to lie a little so that it would be seen in a better light.
I remember doing this myself and I never felt good about it. If most Witnesses are honest with themselves they will admit they are dishonest as well when defending the religion to non-JWs.
Same here. I was a loyal defender of the JWs but I also had to resort to lying to protect the image.
I congratulate you on your honesty and search for truth. If more JWs were like you I'd have a lot more respect for the org.