Hi Letty
First of all, know that there's hundreds of ex-JWs on here reading your post all rooting for you and wishing we could physically help you as well as emotionally. If you lived anywhere near any of us we'd take you in in a heartbeat - seriously.
The situation you present is unfortunately not uncommon. Congrats to you for seeing the religion for what it is at this stage, some of us wake up at 60 years old or even older and we see how much of our lives we've wasted.
The only advice I can give is definitely post here more. Share you feelings, your progress, ask questions, ask for help. Definitely do YouTube videos. Other people need to know what this religion does to people and it's quite therapeutic getting things off your chest and sharing your journey with millions of people.
No one here is going to think bad that you went back to your parents and the meetings. We get it. We know the pressure you're under. How old are you again? If i were you I'd be super nice to your parents, the perfect daughter - but stand your ground when it comes to your beliefs. You don't have to argue about it or make a big deal of it, but simply present what you believe as facts. Facts can never be dis proven. Facts have nothing to fear from lies or dishonesty. I'd even answer up contradicting the Watchtowers theology. As long as you present an answer from the bible how could they disagree?
But for all that, well done. We care about you and hope to read from you more often. Let us know if you do YouTube videos we'll all follow you.
Pale.Emperor