University is going really good! I'm meeting alot of different people. Friends are so much easier to make here with 'worldly ' people. I have not and have no plans of telling anyone of my religion of the past few years or have any religious discussions for that matter. I have to take courses this semester that include Psychology,Philosophy and Critical Thinking (the first thing i thought of when i saw that was you all). The workload is heavy and i have joined a club (oooooo extra curiculumn activities.....baad girl) but i'm loving it. The people are so nice! It makes me realize how judgemental i was.
I had procrastinated for a few months as to coming off Regular pioneering. Sometimes i would be so ready to dump it then i'd go to meeting,assembly or speak to a zealous jw and tell myself to keep pioneering AND go to college. I was firm with myself because i was hating pioneering even though i was NOT making the time and I knew that staying on was pleasing no one. So i wrote up my letter and i was going to give it to an elder (service overseer who has been secretly encouragging me to go university for a while but will never tell his viewpoint to anyone for fear of being deleted. Apparently, he wants to prove to the other elders that you can go to college and still remain a witness through ME) but he told me that me giving him the letter will cause trouble and i should give it to the Presiding overseer.
So i walk out the KH then build up the courage to come back and give him the letter. He is upset. He tells me - the elders were just discussing how they would help me with my time so it's sad --Is this really what i want? ---What if Armageddon was to come within the next four years? (reminded me of the most unethical obedience is to do it out of fear of puniishment) ---He's sad because the number of pioneer's in his group has lessened.----He then tells me that i have to pioneer this month because i was suppose to give the branch a month to process it. lol.
I answered him to suit for all the questions and stuck to my guns to come off pioneering.
It hasn't been announced yet. I still don't know what i really want to with my life buy i'm moving forward. i think.
Take care all.
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