Posts by MsGrowingGirl20

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Anyone here, have you had enough religion for the rest of your life?

by restrangled in

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thats how i feel,..... no disrespect for those who find another way or place to worship.

i for one cannot stand any religion on any level.

how do you feel?.

i am a regular pioneer in my cong reading crisis of conscience.here goes...

by MsGrowingGirl20 in

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i'm on page 90 right now...the info is definitely new and gives me a totally diff view as to how i used to think of faithful and discreet slave.

i was thoroughly disgusted with the way the brothers handled the oral sex and leadership problem and the insight on the scriptures book...... still have alot of questions though.

MsGrowingGirl20

I asked for a sign that would tell me if this was the only true religion.

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i am a regular pioneer in my cong reading crisis of conscience.here goes...

by MsGrowingGirl20 in

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friends

i'm on page 90 right now...the info is definitely new and gives me a totally diff view as to how i used to think of faithful and discreet slave.

i was thoroughly disgusted with the way the brothers handled the oral sex and leadership problem and the insight on the scriptures book...... still have alot of questions though.

MsGrowingGirl20

Just an Update!

I was reading this thread over and thought that an UPDATE was needed especially for those now 'waking up."

Since last year, I have stopped going meetings and then started again. Stopped and then started again. I had those moments when I hated everything about this religion and just wanted out. On the flip side, I also had those moments when I just wanted to believe and stay in the organization. While talking with a friend, she told me to pray and asked God for a sign. I tested the sign 3 times at home and got no result. She told me that it's because I was doubting Jehovah. I then asked for an obvious sign that I would have no problem having in the hall and obviously, it happened. I started dancing the JW jig for about two weeks again and realized that I just couldn't do it.

After reading Coc, I just couldn't sit in the hall and just listen and believe everything that they were telling me. No matter how hard I tried.

One thing that the posters on here taught me was that I do not have to rush everything like the JW'S do.

Anyway, I started University last year and it's going pretty good. I'm learning a lot. One topic in one of my courses covered 'Indoctrination' and critical thinking skils is a must in all areas. These are things that the leadership in the org do not want you to acquire. I have made a lot of friends and they were really open especially when the friends from the hall started to treat me differently.

I came off pioneering last August and never went to a meeting since last November. No Memorial, Convention or anything. Prior to this, I spoke to older ones, the elders and the CO in my congregation about my doubts and none were able to give me satisfactory answers. All of there answers usually came back to,"But where else? Who else is preacing?" I reallly couldn't swallow that stuff anymore and luckily I was the strongest Witnes in family. So since I stopped, my mom went about 3 times and my cousin has never went. The elders are not bothering me as yet and I feel as though they are just giving me time to commit some sin so they can df me.

My friends don't come around or talk to me anymore. I try to contact the sister who studied with me and three other friends once in a while to find out how they are keeping but they never call me. One time the sister who studied with me started crying and repeating," I know that I'm not supposed to get emotional..." Not supposed to get emotional?? So I guess the elders have told them to not contact me and to not get emotional in the situation.

I've gone through a lot of stages or phases since then. I wanted to be a Muslim, a mainstream Christian and even a Hindu. However, as of right now, I'm not to sure about God.

I'm not sure if He exists and if He does, if He is really concerned with us. It's a process so I don't hold anything into concrete. My views may change and that's what I love abt not being a JW; i can think!

Going to University

Birthdays/ Holidays

I speak to df people

I started dating and kissed my boyfriend!

I speak on apostate websites

I'm a volunteer

I discuss politics

And i plan on giving blood

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Happiness/unhappiness

by lostinthought in

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i was told by a family member the other day "if you want to leave jehovah, go ahead.

but don't think you'll ever be happy.

all the people i know who have left got burned by the world and they come back to the truth".

MsGrowingGirl20

Hey, I posted this five months before but when I read your post, this came to mind: That sweet, tingling feeling you get, no matter how hard life is at the time, when you remember that you're free. That feeling reminds you that it's okay to not be sure about everything and it's okay to love persons even if they don't read the same literature or hold the same views as you. It's okay to make mistakes because the people who love you will not pull back their love and association because of it. The persons who are around you genuinely love you and are not just trying to portray 'love' because it looks good to 'potential' sheep. It's even okay to try new things and it isn't a bad thing when you're actually enjoying life. I don't have to try to be someone that i'm not and my worth is not, not... My worth is not measured by a number on a piece of paper. I can go through life at my own pace and i can be different. That feeling reminds me that i can be MYSELF!

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WHAT IS GOING ON?!!

by MsGrowingGirl20 in

i feel as though i'm losing it.. firstly, my mom isn't baptized but has been around witnesses for a long time.

when i was in, she would have problems with the religion.

we were always at ends with eachother.

MsGrowingGirl20

THANKS Steve2, i never thought of it like that. I have no idea how to deal with this.