I really want to let go of the exJW obsession. But I can't. I keep coming here and other sites several times a day.
I want to shout from the rooftops to my family and friends and say, "IT'S ALL A LIE!" But, they won't listen. Their cult personalities shut down and they don't give your point of view the consideration a friend or family deserves.
They want you to conform to their ideology and way of thinking.
I'm so tired of being in limbo.
I want my family out of my life at this point. They will never wake up. And, quite frankly, because I love them and because of the abuse, I don't want them to. Because of my love for them, I don't want them to wake up and realize they wasted their entire lives on a bunch of lies. On the other hand, because of the abuse, I kind of want them to keep wasting their life like they wasted the 'days of my young manhood.'
I hate them all and I love them all.
Sorry to vent. I'm just having a really crappy day, emotionally.