IMHO it might be the old "no atheist in foxholes" mentality. He's gotta know his life is crumbling with no light at the end of the tunnel... a normal, hard-working, mature man can learn a new trade, open a new business, whatever. Lloyd has nothing but his supposed expertise on the inner workings of JWs. He kept his wife in check when she was fresh out of the JWs and didn't know the full extent of his abusive, gaslighting, perverse ways.
Now it's all over, his wife isn't coming back, the money and patrons aren't coming back, the media isn't calling, and he's getting older and uglier every day. His credibility as an exJW is shot but he's got nothing else to offer anyone. He's in his own version of a foxhole with no one coming to save him.
So he's probably subconsciously hoping there's something bigger than him (no pun intended) out there that he can rely on to return him to his former glory, or at least keep him from ending up homeless and destitute.
Just my two cents...