I am still feeling kinda confused, please send me suggestions! There is still many stuff I haven't accounted and I still don't know how to lead a normal life, even though I have been learning and I am actually having fun for the first time!
It's going to take a while before the confused part goes away. It actually takes a lot of research on religious cults and how they work to mess your mind up. Getting professional help is sometimes very expensive and if you are patient and determined, there are easier, more convenient and cheaper ways of getting help.
I suggest reading Steven Hassan book on mind control. You can get "used" books on Amazon for about $10
Sometime you just have to wait for used ones to become available. DON'T PAY HIGH PRICES for those books There are people that visit Amazon everyday to buy those used books by Steven Hassan and then resell them at prices that are just crazy. Here is one you can get for $11 dollars used. Don't pay more.
https://www.amazon.com/Freedom-Mind-Helping-Controlling-Beliefs/dp/0967068819/ref=sr_1_4?crid=1I4K1OGNBK2H0&dchild=1&keywords=steven+hassan&qid=1606001865&sprefix=steven+hass%2Caps%2C205&sr=8-4
Also get familiar with the many false prophesies and changing new light by the Watchtower. This website will help.
Here is a website with some brief videos you will enjoy
https://freedomofmind.com/videos/
One more thing, don't give up your nice paying job just because some jw is making it hard for you. It's good practice to learn how to deal with idiots. There are lots of people besides jws that are idiotic and sooner or later you will run into them. No need to make your life harder by driving longer.
You're more than welcome--- to visit whenever you need help.