Joy- thank you for responding I was hoping to hear from you.
Sunshine- The shunning doesn't terrify me it HURTS LIKE HELL!! I do have family, but they are all Pentecostal Born Again Christians. YES, they'd be happy if I left. But then they'd try to convert me. Heck NO!! I have had enough religion to last me a lifetime or two. I don't want to put myself in that position.
Howecer, I did "come out" to my grandmother (she is a pastor? pastress?, and missionary whatever) and when I broke down crying. You know what she did? She smiled. My mom converted her daughter, my aunt, my mom's sister in law and my granny figures she evened the score. She got one on her side. It's kind of like my mom and grandmother are playing the "who can convert more" game. They have severed the family in half and I don't really want to go there. Anyway, my Pentecostal family is more nuts than my JW family.
The only person that i can kind of confide in is my Dad. He's worldly. He kind of HATES being thrown in the middle (me and my Mom). But he'll get used to it. He's just used to us (me and mom being on same side). He doesn't understand my NEED to DA. He has asked me to stay still for a while and I have. But I need to move on.
In regards to firends, I have you guys and that's about it. No "worldly" friends, no JW friends anymore. I have a co-worker we work closely together and he's great he kindof understands. He's gay so he understands the shunning and "coming out."
