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  Finding serenity after leaving the JWs

  by NaruNaruChan in

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  tonight was such an interesting and profound night for me.

  i went to class... well, specifically a class that i enjoy a great deal... with a professor who has inspired me since i began college...

  so i'm sitting there, listening to him lecture, watching him walk back and forth across the stage with this huge projection of the u.s. territories in the background... and for the first time in what seems like ages, my soul spoke to me.

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  acsot

  Wonderful, absolutely wonderful. You described your experience of finding yourself beautifully. Thank you for posting it.
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  Did you ever go back to the Kingdom Hall ..

  by acsot in

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  2. friends

  faking interest so as to gather material for a research paper?

  i'm in the position now of pretty well being able to plan exactly how i leave for good.

  i'll be moving to a foreign language congregation at some point in the near future, then after awhile i'll be "selling my house" and "moving" far out of the territory i'm in now.

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  acsot

  I was hoping you'd post Scully!

  One of your goals could be to show that this is an organizational phenomenon instead of a being an isolated subset of weirdos.

  Having an elderly parent who is unwell and disabled "but would enjoy hearing the talk" is a good reason to tape record the meetings surreptitiously.

  Excellent idea! I'll also be able to do it in three languages (unless, of course, I don't kill myself first because of having to listen to all that mind-boggling nonsense).
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  Did you ever go back to the Kingdom Hall ..

  by acsot in

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  faking interest so as to gather material for a research paper?

  i'm in the position now of pretty well being able to plan exactly how i leave for good.

  i'll be moving to a foreign language congregation at some point in the near future, then after awhile i'll be "selling my house" and "moving" far out of the territory i'm in now.

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  acsot

  franklin J: I understand completely. I am under no delusions whatsoever about the "love" shown by JWs. My mother has been virtually ignored since her heart attack and stroke almost exactly a year ago.

  However, I hate the thought of wasting my life in that cult. For me, if it is to have any meaning at all, any purpose in spending my youth and young adulthood peddling garbage to an unsuspecting public, then I need to do what I can, from a research point of view, to expose them and warn people of the suble yet sinister truth behind the smiling faces and friendly facade.

  Collectively we have a wealth of experience with which to help others. I know that each of us will exit and heal in our own way. I am already studying journalism and plan on continuing writing and researching in various forms, which is why I want to do an undergraduate degree. Being able to attend university is a long held dream, one that was squashed by the WTS when I was young. Now that I have a a job that pays the bills, my educational focus can be of my choosing. So I want to take what I can from the cult and use it to not only to help others but to make sense of the whole experience for myself. I love to write, and if I can do something useful with it at the same time, then that's great.

  And everyone still thinks I'm in good standing so being able to get their information first hand in order to use it against them suits me just fine!
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  Did you ever go back to the Kingdom Hall ..

  by acsot in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  faking interest so as to gather material for a research paper?

  i'm in the position now of pretty well being able to plan exactly how i leave for good.

  i'll be moving to a foreign language congregation at some point in the near future, then after awhile i'll be "selling my house" and "moving" far out of the territory i'm in now.

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  Thanks Joy. Problem is it will take some time before I get enough credits to even start writing a paper. That's why I figure I better get my act together now and start attending again, once in awhile.

  The good thing about living in a large urban centre is that people lose track of you. I'm taking care of my elderly mother, so people think I'm attending the foreign language hall I used to go to many years ago (hehehe).

  However, it recently occurred to me that once I'm out completely, just the thought of going back to a KH would be so gruesome I'd never do it. So I'll set the wheels in motion now and gather what information I can. There will nonetheless be a significant lapse of time between attending my last meeting and getting my research down on paper.

  I'll be using Quotes website quite a bit, but nothing beats the personal touch.
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  Did you ever go back to the Kingdom Hall ..

  by acsot in

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  2. friends

  faking interest so as to gather material for a research paper?

  i'm in the position now of pretty well being able to plan exactly how i leave for good.

  i'll be moving to a foreign language congregation at some point in the near future, then after awhile i'll be "selling my house" and "moving" far out of the territory i'm in now.

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  acsot

  faking interest so as to gather material for a research paper? I'm in the position now of pretty well being able to plan exactly how I leave for good. I'll be moving to a foreign language congregation at some point in the near future, then after awhile I'll be "selling my house" and "moving" far out of the territory I'm in now. I will then go to maybe two meetings, make sure my publisher card is moved, then disappear.

  However, I'm planning on doing an undergraduate degree soon (after I finish my certificate in journalism) and think I may do cult research, etc. So I'd use the time in the next little while to take notes while at the meetings, concentrating on stuff like Watchtower buzz words, subtle manipulation in the literature, control techniques, you know, all that wonderful stuff cults are made up of.

  Just wondering if anyone else attended meetings with this type of ulterior motive. Must make the time go by quickly, and I'll probably be concentrating more than anyone else in the hall.
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  Apostates receive a letter from the Watchtower

  by jst2laws in

  1. social
  2. current

  we receive a letter from the watchtower yesterday.

  thought it might be a card celebrating our disfellowshipping this time last year.

  maybe threats or denunciations.

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  acsot

  That would be the most perfect thing that ever happened in the history of the whole world.

  ROTFLAMO!!

  SaintSatan had a good suggestion as to the letter; Scully also, I'd love to see their faces at Brooklyn if they received a thank you card on behalf of Ray Franz.
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  Some days I really hate having been a dub...

  by Abaddon in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  ... okay, this is a real glass-half-full day, in fact it's a glass-half-full of nothing falling into a pit of infinate depth day.. does anyone else have re-occuring getting-one's-shit-together problems?.

  i can get a job, get promoted real quick, i'm reasonably smart, when motivated i can work other people into a physical decline.

  yet i always hide from reality in some way; chiefly financial.

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  acsot

  Abaddon, it's not just you. Lots of people have trouble with time management, managing finances, etc. Being a dub would not cause it, IMHO.

  What you may lack in time management, which is merely your perception of it (others who work with you may not see you as having that problem), you more than make up for in other ways, such as in reasoning skills, insight, etc.

  Besides, you're one of my favourite posters .
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  Big Tex & cruzanheart: 1, Elders: 0

  by cruzanheart in

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  2. friends

  so it's a beautiful saturday morning in murphy, texas -- big tex was about to go to home depot and i was about to start weeding the garden when we looked out front and there was a nondescript 4-door sedan parked in front of our house.

  the two guys in it weren't getting out, so we thought "uh-oh.

  " i asked again, "why didn't you come and visit me then?

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  acsot

  Way to go guys! Reading this post was a great way to start my day. It was interesting what happens to people after they spend time in the borg - I'm thinking of that elder that 6of9 knew way back when. Now he's tired and gray. So sad.

  I hope to have my wits about me next time I get a call or visit. Can I borrow the pooch?
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  My life is going to have a BIG change soon

  by Mulan in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  most of you on this board know my husband and i have been caring for my aged parents for many years.

  mom is 91 and is in assisted living now, since november, when we could no longer fill her care needs.

  (my parents have been divorced since 1969 so we weren't separating a married couple, in case you wondered) .

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  It sounds like a great place for your dad. Does he have macular degeneration? It sounds like what my mum has in her left eye.

  Your parents are fortunate to have you and your husband taking such good care f them all these years.

  Enjoy your well-deserved freedom!
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  My Dad died a few hours ago

  by BONEZZ in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  excuse me if i ramble...this is hard.

  i have even avoided threads in the past where others have had to go thru this because i didn't want to face it.

  guess i'm a wuss.

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  acsot

  I'm so sorry for your loss. Your dad was courageous in more ways than one. Take care of yourself. Please post more when you are up to it.

  ((((((Bonezz)))))