Thanks terry,I've spent a sleepless last 4 hours thinking about all that, and now to finally get on the ol computer and find this, more eloquently put I must say but still.... Its been a month for me so the tug/guilt is still there, some days more than others, its the way they put the word/labels on things that does embed deep within the subconcious mind, the truth, accurate knowledge, the real life,- his chosen people its all geared up to make you think you are special,seen heard and wanted by the most high and right in your choice.
Coming to this site has been a real eye opener for me but also a daily top up of strength and logical thinking, to have almost any thoughts fears I have about leaving relayed back through others shows me all I have to do is perservere and I will get through this, I heard our opposition leader-Australia -Tony Abbot going on about China being the next world power yesterday and inwardly I felt sick thinking this would be the last king to rule for a short time, I tried to tell myself all day its because of what you have learnt through the jw's snap out of it, but the fear/triggers will be there for awhile I guess, So reading your thoughts and others, on it all helps me to put it all in place- a manageable place.
Ammo