Thank you for all of your support, I'll be sure to keep you informed on how I'm doing. I've got about 90% of my stuff moved into my new place and will be getting the rest this afternoon. I feel so much more at home right now than I have for a long time.
Saethydd
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Day 1: The Night of Anger, Tears, and Pain
by Saethydd inmy freedom came with a heavy cost.
i couldn't stand the dishonesty so when my sister went out of town on a trip i told my parents that i no longer wanted to be a jw.
when my sister got back and i told her she was so angry, said she really wanted to slap me, then she ran off sobbing, a few minutes later she deposited every gift i ever gave her in front of my door.. my entire family has turned against me.
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Day 1: The Night of Anger, Tears, and Pain
by Saethydd inmy freedom came with a heavy cost.
i couldn't stand the dishonesty so when my sister went out of town on a trip i told my parents that i no longer wanted to be a jw.
when my sister got back and i told her she was so angry, said she really wanted to slap me, then she ran off sobbing, a few minutes later she deposited every gift i ever gave her in front of my door.. my entire family has turned against me.
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Saethydd
My freedom came with a heavy cost. I couldn't stand the dishonesty so when my sister went out of town on a trip I told my parents that I no longer wanted to be a JW. When my sister got back and I told her she was so angry, said she really wanted to slap me, then she ran off sobbing, a few minutes later she deposited every gift I ever gave her in front of my door.
My entire family has turned against me. They all feel so much pain over this and from their point of view it's all my fault. Even though I know in my head that it's the narrow-minded shunning policy of the Watchtower that really causes this pain, I can't help but feel guilt everytime I relive hearing my sister crying or my mother's angry insistence that "deep down I know this is the Truth."
This morning I woke up in a home where I have freedom and acceptance. I'm glad I found good friends before I committed to this path because I know that this wouldn't have gone well for me otherwise. I have a long road ahead of me to reach a happy life, and I doubt these scars will ever fully heal, but now at least I can begin to get on with my life.
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How ballroom dancing helped our exit
by Finally Left injust wanted to say hello and thank you for all of your comments.
when i finally figured out this was not the truth it was nice to know i wasn't the only one - it was a surprise to learn how many there are.
february was my last month of service after 43 active years.
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Saethydd
One group of really good friends who understand your situation and are supportive about it help so much. I know that it was my finding that which helped me have the courage to finally tell my parents that I don't want to be a JW anymore, even if it meant I'd have to move out.
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why does no one ask questions ?
by midnight ini always felt bad for asking questions , did anyone else ?
what question did you ask or want to ask but feel it was wrong ?
mine was regarding the circuit assembly and the amount defecit anounced .. also 1975 i got a stern reply too when i was studying in the 90,s.
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Saethydd
For me, asking questions wasn't the problem, it was when I wasn't satisfied with the given answers. (Or if I knew that the given answer was a distortion or outright lie.) That is when it started to fall apart for me.
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Told My Parents Yesterday That I Don't Want to Be a JW
by Saethydd ini wasn't entirely sure what to expect when i made the decision to tell my parents how i really feel, but i was prepared for the worst, fortunately, it didn't come to that.
after i told them i didn't want to go to the meetings anymore it led to a long talk with them.
they made a number of irksome and woefully uninformed statements but at least they were not aggressive and have said that they won't force me to move out over this, though, i can tell they are hoping they can convince me to "accept the truth," as long as i still live with them.
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Saethydd
Wow...so sorry to hear.
Do you have someone or somewhere safe you can go?
Fortunately, I did foresee this scenario and started seeking a new place to live months ago, it took me about two days to find one of my friends who was willing to let me rent a room in their house. I've also been spending quite a bit of time hanging out over there and getting to know my other housemates, and letting my dog get to know them too so I'm hoping for a fairly smooth transition, the hardest things for me is going to be all of the new expenses I've got to pick up, fortunately I already found flexible part-time work that I can fit around my college schedule, doesn't pay great but hopefully it'll keep me from starving.
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Told My Parents Yesterday That I Don't Want to Be a JW
by Saethydd ini wasn't entirely sure what to expect when i made the decision to tell my parents how i really feel, but i was prepared for the worst, fortunately, it didn't come to that.
after i told them i didn't want to go to the meetings anymore it led to a long talk with them.
they made a number of irksome and woefully uninformed statements but at least they were not aggressive and have said that they won't force me to move out over this, though, i can tell they are hoping they can convince me to "accept the truth," as long as i still live with them.
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Saethydd
Thanks for all the support and advice, though, I think I may have spoken too soon about their reaction, apparently, they didn't completely understand me the first time we spoke and told me yesterday that they won't be comfortable with me living here if I don't want to try and get reinstated any longer, so I guess my plans for moving out have been shifted to this weekend.
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Baptized at a young age, homeschooled, and pioneered ...
by Wild_Thing inand all of this by the time i was 14. i was the youngest person in my pioneer school.
was anybody else in the trenches (to this degree) at such a young age?.
i look back on it now and marvel at how isolated i was.
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Saethydd
I very nearly was like that, I was baptized at 10, started homeschooling in 7th grade so I could pioneer with my mother and sister, but the three of us could never really get motivated, and then a couple of years later I was privately reproved and didn't end up having the restrictions from that raised until about 8 months before I got disfellowshipped. In that time I'd decided to get started on college classes and am very glad I did. I would definitely say it hurt me to homeschool instead of go to a normal high school, I had to play a lot of catch up with my math classes because I didn't do enough algebra on my own to really learn it. I'm a little behind where I'd like to be in my education but it could've been so much worse. Though my parents took virtually no part in my education, I taught myself and scheduled all my learning time without barely any input from them at all except for occasionally nagging me a bit when I fell behind.
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Told My Parents Yesterday That I Don't Want to Be a JW
by Saethydd ini wasn't entirely sure what to expect when i made the decision to tell my parents how i really feel, but i was prepared for the worst, fortunately, it didn't come to that.
after i told them i didn't want to go to the meetings anymore it led to a long talk with them.
they made a number of irksome and woefully uninformed statements but at least they were not aggressive and have said that they won't force me to move out over this, though, i can tell they are hoping they can convince me to "accept the truth," as long as i still live with them.
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Saethydd
I wasn't entirely sure what to expect when I made the decision to tell my parents how I really feel, but I was prepared for the worst, fortunately, it didn't come to that. After I told them I didn't want to go to the meetings anymore it led to a long talk with them. They made a number of irksome and woefully uninformed statements but at least they were not aggressive and have said that they won't force me to move out over this, though, I can tell they are hoping they can convince me to "accept the Truth," as long as I still live with them. As far as I can tell they will still shun me as soon as I leave their home, but at least now I have more time to prepare for that eventuality and no longer feel as if I have to hide the fact that I have been making "worldly" friends.
They seem to think that my desire to leave is simply because I have "hurt feelings over being disfellowshipped," and that I "lack the humility to accept discipline," so I've clearly made no headway in convincing them that this is an informed decision, but ah well, at least I don't have to feel like I'm living a lie anymore.
I think the thing we discussed which I find most pitiable is that they feel if God doesn't exist then our lives are completely meaningless, my father actually said that "If Jehovah doesn't exist one may as well shoot them self in the head." That kind of statement implies that they don't believe that raising children, finding love, being a good person, or trying to make the world a better place have any value in and of themselves. That if one can't exist forever then they may as well not exist at all. Personally, I think that is why they are so unwilling to accept any evidence that their religion is wrong because they are afraid to. If God is not real then from their point of view their life has no purpose at all.
Anyway, I just thought I would let anyone who was interested in my story know how things have worked out so far.
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Gas or Electric Stove
by just fine ini am getting new appliances.
i have decided on black stainless for the finish.
the house is stubbed for gas and electric for the range.
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Saethydd
If you cook frequently I would recommend a gas range if not then an electric range would probably be adequate.
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May 14, 2017 TO ALL BODIES OF ELDERS Re: Public Reading of Study Material at Congregation Meetings
by wifibandit inmay 14, 2017 to all bodies of elders re: public reading of study material at congregation meetings.
which replaces.
april 22, 2012 to all bodies of elders re: reading scriptures at the watchtower study.
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Saethydd
"And whatever you do, don't have an independent or unique thought. After all, not following our exact and tedious instructions for conducting a basic question and answer session is the first step towards becoming a devil worshiper."