jdash- I don't wanna seem as a complainer to you guys but I just want to be normal.
I wouldn't worry about the complainer part. I didn't see it that way and I guarantee no one else did.
Your post is normal. Your feelings are normal given the circumstances.
Jws are abnormal.
I wish I could have grasped that my feelings were normal at your age. It took me until I was 40. Thanks to the heavy indoctrination in the WTBS cult.
Congrats on college. Try to let no one rip that away from you.
Id start just keeping things to yourself meaning dont tell your jw family or other jws if its going to cause you to feel the heavy guilt they lay on. You dont deserve that. Lfe journey cn be difficult enough without the extra burden of caring what they think.
Care about what you think.