I am not sad and angry any more.
Juvenil ardor of discovery and jauntiness brought me to accept anything what the watchtower taught. However the bible studies and the family-like community in the sect matched my then interests.
Perhaps without influence of parallel society I would have studied at university, maybe, but after high school I didnt really have the interest to learn but began to work instead. It did not matter me that they talked about me when I began to change from full to parttime. This was rare for a man. Unfortunately I have not concentrated enough for my career but floated in pioneer phantasy. Nevertheless I accomplished to get later a new and more interesting fulltimejob in Customer Relations.
The people I met in the congreation and region were all civilized and courteous. Even when I travelled in other countries like e.g. Rome, Italy, I met fine families. So what relates the human side, I cant remember any bad experience for many years and I have good memories.
Except the sudden Gestapo like private visits at home after I began to miss the congregations and spying around in my room whether that I was ready to receive help or whether I was already to far away and perhaps on a wrong way. As well as the following phon calls for finding out my standpoint.
In the end everything turned out all right. Much water has flown down the Themes. I am free!!