Posts by krejames

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I was HAPPY as a JW, how did I get here?

by MC RubberMallet in

some have figured out, but i am a poster that previously used another name.

but even then i did not give many details about myself.

i barely cracked 100 posts.. but i have never done a thread to explain why i am here.

krejames

Really interesting thread. Looking forward to reading the rest of your story

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Schizophrenia

by frankiespeakin in

while doing some personal research on the subject i came across this.

basically in the jungian world it is discribed as an overpowering of ego by the unconsciousness.

"if the human race survives, future men will, i suspect, look back on our enlightened epoch as a veritable age of darkness... they will see that what was considered 'schizophrenic' was one of the forms in which, often through quite ordinary people, the light began to break into our all-too-closed minds.".

krejames

May I ask what posters here who have friend or family members with schizoprehnia think of the statement that they are closer to God than what we deem healthy people?

My dad thought he was Jesus...and that my sisters and I were children of the devil. I remember my oldest sister saying to him one time, if we're children of the devil, who does that make you?

On a serious note, we soon learned that the best way to calm him was to agree with everything he said. A lot of his anger and frustration was because no one believed what he was saying. He was genuinely terrified. so in the end, if he said the government was stealing his ideas from his brain, we would act shocked and say how terrible it was. We realised this was the best way to converse with him - he did seem to calm down quite a lot from then on. But it was still a very sad existence for him. Closer to God? Closer to a lot of people's idea of hell, more like.

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just a quick "hi" & introduction

by grumblecakes in

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friends

im a wee bit shy/scared of all this, but just wanted to introduce myself real quick...here goes.... .

hey there everybody!

im grumblecakes.

krejames

Welcome! When I first read your post the phrases you used were almost exactly like my best friend in my cong, and for a minute I thought she might have discovered the truth about the truth! But I can see that's not the case if you're from Philadelphia, not UK!

Nice to "meet" you in any case!

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Schizophrenia

by frankiespeakin in

while doing some personal research on the subject i came across this.

basically in the jungian world it is discribed as an overpowering of ego by the unconsciousness.

"if the human race survives, future men will, i suspect, look back on our enlightened epoch as a veritable age of darkness... they will see that what was considered 'schizophrenic' was one of the forms in which, often through quite ordinary people, the light began to break into our all-too-closed minds.".

krejames

My dad was paranoid schizophrenic. he had a nervous breakdwown and was subsequently subject to electro-shock treatment here in hte UK (this is going back to the late 70s). This made him worse and he ended up going back to Sicily for six months for treatment there, and he came back much improved. I have always thought that was probably what started it for him. A few years on from this terrible experience he developed a fear and suspicion of all authority and felt they were stealing his ideas from his brain and spying on him lazer beams. He avoided all form-filling, stopped paying his bills and mortgage and hoarded his money in a cupboard in his house. He must have been very frightened. He was not diagnosed for years and years later (the 90s) when we finally managed to take him to see a doctor, as the bank were threatening to repossess his house but he always refused to take the medication - he never took any as far as I'm aware. As he got older he mellowed and learned to keep himself to himself and eventually moved back to his sicilian hometown. I understand he was fairly reclusive there too and avoided his family there, but I hope he found some peace in his home environment and in the sun.

It's a really horrible condition and I feel for anyone living with it either a a sufferer or as a family member. Thankfully treatments, care and support are getting better in this country.

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I need your help!!!!!!!!

by outsmartthesystem in

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quick update - my wife moved out and took the kids with her while i was at work.

she went to live with her parents.

she took every last article of clothing and even some of her favorite furniture.

krejames

Sorry to hear you're going through this.

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A question for Undercover and others

by tornapart in

undercover, i was interested in your last post and how you felt that believing in god is a delusion.

i'm not interested in any debates over it but i saw you have been here for 10 years!

that's some stay!

krejames

I'm still on my journey. I'm pretty much disconnected emotionally and mentally from the organisation (though I still attend meetings more often than not). However, I have woken up to the fact that I want to believe in God. I still have a certain kind of affection for my mental image of Jehovah and mind still turns towards him when I go to bed. But reason tells me, as a Gay born-in, that he surely can't exist or he would not have included the stuff about homosexuality in the Bible, whilst completely ignoring something as abhorrent as paedophilia. It's either that or he is an extremely cruel being that I would not want to worship or that it would be pointless to worship. but at the same time I have been doing lots of reading in scientific articles about evolution - while I can accept some of it to a degree, I still find a lot of it way too far fetched and still lean towards the involvement of some intelligent higher being. In summary: At this moment in time I guess I'm agnostic.

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im stunned

by maccauk11 in

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here is something tha thas just amazed me.

i had two witnesses at the door.

i invited them in for a few minutes because of the cold.

krejames

Even now that I'm ready and willing to believe many of the allegations against the Society, when people repeat the Freemason allegations as if it were fact, they lose all credibility with me. There is nothing but circumstantial evidence and hearsay to support the Freemason line of enquiry. nothing that would stand in a court of law to prove the matter "beyond reasonable doubt". I'm NOT saying it's not possible that Russell was connected with them, he may well have been - just that ultimately it's unprovable and so should not be stated as fact - otherwise we're no better that the GB we're so fond of criticising for their far fetched references in the reasoning book and all . By all means be honest a state that it is an allegation - an allegation that you choose to believe.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Taze_Russell#Alleged_connections_with_Freemasonry

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Favorite JW Urban Legends

by Christ Alone in

what are your favorite urban legends that you heard as a jw?.

here's mine:.

a brother, through his work, was asked to give a speech to the united nations.

krejames

Oh and I forgot, back when I was a kid a circuuit overseer said at our congregation that we were not to eat red Smarties because they contained cochineal which he said is made from beetle's blood. This one spread like wild fire around the congregations with lots of JWs refusing to eat red Smarties and other red sweets. This gave rise to another rumour that Rowntree (Smarties' manufacturer) had threatened to sue the Society for spreading false rumours (now THAT I can believe lol)

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Favorite JW Urban Legends

by Christ Alone in

what are your favorite urban legends that you heard as a jw?.

here's mine:.

a brother, through his work, was asked to give a speech to the united nations.

krejames

A sister was working on the field service on her own and called on this door when a strnage man answered. She does her presentation and leaves. Later the guy is arrested as a serial kiler. When asked why he didn't kill the sister too, he says he was scared of the two men who were standing either side of her (the angels lol) I've heard that one so many time and was completely taken in by it until a Born Again repeated the same story but about about a Born Again woman not a JW lol. Pure crap.

I've heard the John Denver story and I've heard of the same thing happening at numerous other concerts...the most laughable one was that Annie Lennox said in a concert that there "must be some Jehovah's Witnesses here, as I cannot contact the spirits...please leave" (there was a rumour among JWs that she was a witch, and that, I am sure was based on nothing more than a misunderstanding of one of her song lyrics that said something along the lines of "I used to have my demons in my head" or something like that (clearly meaning figuratively)). I love it when you hear the new generation repeating this same crap for newer artists - I guess every generation has them.

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Should i tell him what is really going on with me? I care about him so much.

by make yourself in

for some reason the doubts came lurking back again.

i know this religion is messed up because a person should not be having creeping doubts surface up like this.

i have not posted or logged on to this site in a very long time.

krejames

Best to be honest and tell him as much as he needs to know to understand your behaviour and emotions. Your leaving the org is going to affect you for a while yet. He needs to know a little bit about what you're going through as you'll need his support if he can give it. If he can't give you any support then you're best without him for now as it will just be an additional emotional pressure. I'm very lucky I am going through the "leaving" journey with a very supportive and understanding boyfriend. He has never once criticised the JWs and even defends them when I am critical. He also doesn't judge me for the fact that I am still going to the meetings while in a relationship that's fairly and squarly against JW beliefs. This has helped me to see things in a balanced way - also from his perspective he knows I could never blame him for my leaving the org because I know my leaving is because of my beliefs and my opinions alone. I really hope all goes well for you.