Hi untruth,
Good to have you on the forum.
I'm an ex elder ... I started waking up about 9 months ago ... It's really tough going - and as you say gets harder each day.
I'm in a similar situation to you regarding my wife... All we've spoken about so far is the new generation teaching... She agrees that it just doesn't make sense... I'm at a loss as to what to talk about next.
I also wonder how many elders feel the same ... There must be a fair number waking up as Elders are a lot closer to the nitty gritty of the org than standard pubs.
Feel free to PM me... We might be able to help each other.
fizzle