Once i realized terms like son of man and word of the lord were actually rooted in the old testament, it became pretty obvious the writers of the new testament thought of Jesus as some kind of manifestion of Yahweh of the old testament. It would be like watching Star Wars and not realizing Darth Vader was the father of Luke Skywalker.
Not saying i can put a pretty little bow around it but at least I can admit it all doesn't make sense or I can admit I don't it all.
The idea of god The father revealing himself though the son makes more sense than god torturing his favorite angel to death.
I am still highly interested in Christian theology for some strange reason.