Hi NonJwspouse,
That's the issue, I have no need for structure, my head is on pretty tight...I came into this religion out of curiosity, I looked too long into the hole and I feel into it....why it's hard for me to leave is because most of the friends need me, they have no place to air their real feelings...somehow, I happen to be that sister that can talk folks off the ledge....No doubt I learned a lot from the friends but I'm the encourager in the congregation. I could tell you more but don't want to say too much....if you know what I mean...
Life is precious, that's what I try to share with the friends....yes, it's nice to look forward to a better day but what about the journey now...not everything is bad....I even have to point out the flowers in field service or tell them that today is a good day because someone just had a healthy baby and someone just found out that their cancer is in remission...yes, all the time I have to tell them the glass is full, so that is why it's hard for me to pull away....I know that these are conditional friends....and if I leave they will miss me...& I them....but I still have friends that are not JW's and that keeps me balanced...
Thanks for the encouragement, that I should not be frozen with fear and that's it right there...fear of man not God...
@ Snowbird,
Yep, that day will be here and you'll be free of yesterday....we will keep each other in our hearts and pray for healing for all those who have gone through so much...Love, Tor
Tor