Having read some of the posts on this site it has become very clear that some of the contributors have come to reject the authority of scripture. Some even appear to reject the reality of our creator. Those two go together.
So I ask "If that is really how you feel about God and his word - why are you here at all ?" Is it really just to complain about your lot in life ? Is it to try and destroy the faith of others ? So you have come out of a cult religion, which is in fact a part of Babylon the Great, does that somehow prove that God does not exist ?
I understand that there is a great trauma from the realisation that the religion that you spent so many years serving is actually false, because I have suffered in the very same way. It took me many years to stabilise my mind. But I never lost my faith in Yahweh and Jesus Christ, and I still spend time researching scripture. Why ? Because I believe that God exists and I love him. I believe the promises that he recorded in the scriptures. "For no matter how many the promises of God are, they have become Yes by means of him." (2Cor_1:20) That is a reference to Jesus Christ, who demonstrated total loyalty to his father.
So, you who are embittered against God - do not poison the waters that others drink.