It just breaks my heart that a religion can have rules and regulations that are truly family destroying, to hear you say goodbye to your mother is killing my emotions toward this evil religion. No human is meant to ever write such letters, O'Pale I hope this hastens your healing process and you can come to terms with being an orphan. We all on here my friend are blessed to ride this journey with you and we WILL help enrich your life. I find it so difficult to comprehend a parent shunning a child, again hang in there, also I know what you did put your mother on notice and as a son you couldn't of done anything else.
cheers Chook