vienne said,
Are x-Witnesses so desperate for something to justify themselves that they cling to this man?
It pains me to say this, but, yes,... I think that's the problem. In 1973, Awake! had an article called, "Are you learning to think clearly?" I remembered (just now) the title, but I had to search for the article to get the "year" and that it was in Awake! I bring this up because I remember praying to be able to think clearly, but feeling like I really didn't have a goal (as the article recommended) and wasn't thinking clearly. Well, duh. NOBODY in Watchtower can think clearly. People wake up and escape from Watchtower, but their thinking process has been in cold storage for a number of years. And some, like me, were "born in". I did have the desire to go to college. I knew a brother who had been a lawyer for the Society and argued before the Supreme Court (USA). I knew two JW chiropractors. I eventually went to college myself. That probably helped me not to fall under Evans' spell.