They play lots of mind games, just when you think that they are feeling the same way, bam....360 turnaround. Why do they get involved with worldly people if they can't or won't pursue a relationship with them? And why the hell would one confess to the elders that we were, um, fornicating, then tell me that I have to help him be strong, so he can be this perfect human, he said this after he took his pants off BUT before he removed my panties.
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ANYONE IN SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP WITH JW
by Serena inhas anyone had any interfaith relationship with a jw that actually worked?
or are they all doomed from day one?
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ANYONE IN SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP WITH JW
by Serena inhas anyone had any interfaith relationship with a jw that actually worked?
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how much bigger???????
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ANYONE IN SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP WITH JW
by Serena inhas anyone had any interfaith relationship with a jw that actually worked?
or are they all doomed from day one?
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Has anyone had any interfaith relationship with a JW that actually worked? Or are they all doomed from day one?
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I FEEL SO USED
by Serena ini have been "fooling around" with brother charlie for a couple months.
going to his apartment and spending the night with him.
i am so in love with him, i would do anything for him, anything at all.
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I can't just turn my heart off like a light bulb.
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I FEEL SO USED
by Serena ini have been "fooling around" with brother charlie for a couple months.
going to his apartment and spending the night with him.
i am so in love with him, i would do anything for him, anything at all.
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WILL SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY IT IS SO BAD FOR A WITNESS TO DATE SOMEONE WHO IS NOT??????????????????????????????PLEASE EXPLAIN.
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I FEEL SO USED
by Serena ini have been "fooling around" with brother charlie for a couple months.
going to his apartment and spending the night with him.
i am so in love with him, i would do anything for him, anything at all.
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We spent last night together, and did not have sex, we just watched tv, read, and talked all night long. He told me that I am his best friend and soul mate. He said something that shocked me, "you know, if we got married, nobody could stop us from being together." He then went on that he needs a change in his life, and that I'm the only person that he feels he can be himself with. He is really confusing me, one day he tells me it is wrong for us to be together, the next day he talks about marriage.
We are both in our mid/late 20's. We've gone out on dates to the movies, or dinner, at night. And we've gone on day trips out of town to visit museums and zoo's. I knew his parents before I knew who he was, and they like me, but they don't know the vivid details of our relationship,they think we've just friends. Today he asked me to go to a reptile exhibit later on next month, which would be a weekend trip.
And we don't just get together and get naked, we talk and talk, watch video's, he cooks for me, we go on long car rides, we talk on the phone for hours. I like who he is on the inside more than what he looks like on the outside.
Although, I have to admit, and maybe I'm just a nympho, who should just close my legs and stop being immoral, I like having sex with him, he is excellent. He touches me in places I never knew existed. And their are nights, he calls me and I go over and all we do is make love. I can't say no, I don't want to say no...but their is more here than just great sex. I feel it when I look into his eyes.
But I still feel used, it matters so much to him what the sisters and brothers in his congregation think of him, and his actions, and he doesn't want them to find out that he is involved with me. To be a good role model for them to follow????that hurt me that I come second. Yes, I do feel hysterical, I am hurt, but at the same time trying to hold on to him anyway I can. Tomorrow, I'm gonna tell him that we need to have a long talk about if we have any kind of future. As much as I love him, I can't live on pins and needles anymore. The truth is I have made huge sacrifices for him, what has he done for me?
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I FEEL SO USED
by Serena ini have been "fooling around" with brother charlie for a couple months.
going to his apartment and spending the night with him.
i am so in love with him, i would do anything for him, anything at all.
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I am in love with him, I am sorry, but I can't dump him and I can't stay away, the only thing I want to do is be with him, any way I can. Deep down I know he cares about me. He's risking a lot by us sneaking around like we are, if we got caught, he'd be in big trouble with the elders. I don't know what this means for a JW guy in his late 20's but he said he was a virgin before he met me. I believe him. I know I am gullible.
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I FEEL SO USED
by Serena ini have been "fooling around" with brother charlie for a couple months.
going to his apartment and spending the night with him.
i am so in love with him, i would do anything for him, anything at all.
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Tonight, he called me and asked me to do him a favor, that there's nobody else he can trust...He's going away for 4 days to see his brother in Maryland and wants me to take care of his Gecko. He's giving me the keys to his apartment, and told me I could hang on to them for awhile. Guess what I said--I agreed. I am putty in his hands, all I have to do is hear his voice and I have no control over my actions or responses.
But he did ask me to come over to show me how to take care of his lizard. I told him that I have to work very early tomorrow and for him to write down everything I need to know, that I seen him feed her before and know what has to be done. So.....I guess I did say no!!!!
He also said that he would miss me, and would like to say goodbye. But I resisted! Although now I am thinking about picking up the phone and well, going over. I would love to just lay next to him and hear his heartbeat. -
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I FEEL SO USED
by Serena ini have been "fooling around" with brother charlie for a couple months.
going to his apartment and spending the night with him.
i am so in love with him, i would do anything for him, anything at all.
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I know he really did or does care about me, he said to me that he has never done something like this before in his life, and I am stupid enough to believe him. But now he's shutting me out of his life, because of the religion that has been embedded in his gulible head. I am not ready yet to try to get over him, actually yeah he is like a drug and I am addicted way out of control. I guess, I lost him to Jehovah, if I dare say that.....
Is it really that bad to be involved with a worldly person in this faith, I mean isn't one of the big things in this religion to "gain converts"?
Yeah, I definitely need a good therapist. But right at this moment I need Charlie more. And I know deep down, he needs me too. -
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I FEEL SO USED
by Serena ini have been "fooling around" with brother charlie for a couple months.
going to his apartment and spending the night with him.
i am so in love with him, i would do anything for him, anything at all.
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I have been "fooling around" with brother charlie for a couple months. Going to his apartment and spending the night with him. I am so in love with him, I would do anything for him, anything at all. I have never felt this way about anyone before in my life. But he has totally broken my heart. He told me that he couldn't do this anymore, that he has a responsibility to his brothers and sisters and what we've been doing is wrong, blah, blah, blah...I gave all of myself to him, because I thought he cared. I don't know if he ever cared, or if I was just a warm body. He says we can still be friends, but nothing more. I have never felt so used in my life. This isn't the first time he's told me that, he always seemed to call me up in the middle of the night and ask me to come over, stupid me--I can't say no, so I go over, and we have sex. He is really making me crazy, I am so hurt, but if he called me tonight, I would be there in a heartbeat. I don't know what to do. He is really messing with my mind. I would give up everything for him.