i wanted to take a moment to thank everyone who has posted here as i have been reading all of them.
i have realized that i am not alone in my struggles and the realization that the " truth" is a bunch of crap.
i have been over come with emotion over the last years or so.
You’re not being judged no matter what you choose to do for your children. If getting them out and running away (leagally) is a viable choice then do it. If staying in to keep the peace is the best option for everyone involved then I would understand and support you regardless.
I ran away. I’m glad I did.
good evening all, this is my first time posting.. been reading and following for two years.
my story will come soon.... but i want to say to all, thanks for all the meaningful, intellectual, honest, and insightful words!!
it’s been an interesting 48 years of service to an organization!
Welcome to the world! Lol I have enjoyed John cedars and exJw Critcal thinker on YouTube. I also appreciate interacting with people in all different phases on their journey out!
https://new.reddit.com/r/exjw/comments/9731g0/beware_someone_has_been_selling_copies_of_my/.
i found these t-shirts really great and i just brought 3 of them, can't wait to put these on in public.
I need that “my book of horror stories” on!! With a rainbow tutu skirt!!
i recently posted that i found out my father is sick.
i have not found out any additional information from my family.
i’m kinda on an “as provided” basis with information.
Caves: honestly I am not completely unraveling. And all signs point to that I should! I feel as if they made me grieve them years ago.. now confronted with the physical deal I feel somewhat removed emotionally, and physically.. so maybe I have the perfect storm to survive this and keep getting better!!
i recently posted that i found out my father is sick.
i have not found out any additional information from my family.
i’m kinda on an “as provided” basis with information.
Ex elder: I understand where you are coming from. If they don’t want me there I don’t want to be there. I’m to the point I just want peace and healing. If going up there will rip open raw wounds I’m not interested
Zeb: nothing they do surprises me. Is it normal to exclude someone from a funeral and expect them to pay their dues? Absolutely not.. so that’s basically what I should plan for. I’m willing to contribute in anyway I can without harming myself to keep them satisfied.
Blown away: you’re right.. I would have to go to the kh. And probably sing songs.. see all those people that hate me... excuse me while I go throw up now.. lol
i recently posted that i found out my father is sick.
i have not found out any additional information from my family.
i’m kinda on an “as provided” basis with information.
I recently posted that I found out my father is sick. I have not found out any additional information from my family. I’m kinda on an “as provided” basis with information.
I had a thought that it is entirely possible for them to pull off a funeral without even telling me. I believe this is true because I personally have been involved with the process of specifically excluding someone from a funeral, with my family.
I got to thinking is this unique to my family? Or is excluding people from funerals (siblings, parents, children) common in this community?
on weekend mornings i like to take my dog for a long walk at a nearby lake.
recently there's been some cultists and a propaganda cart posted up along my walking path.
until today i've ignored them.
I do think they are lying corrupt hypocrites.. however I don’t feel that the ones I run into in a day to day basis are. They are lying yes but they are regurgitating the lies they have been told. They are truthful as far as they know.
im not talking about the governing body.. they are jerks.
on weekend mornings i like to take my dog for a long walk at a nearby lake.
recently there's been some cultists and a propaganda cart posted up along my walking path.
until today i've ignored them.
I know what you mean about them invading your space.
i went to visit my mother in law (non jw) in the place she was living.. I saw the memorial flyers on the table, but I I didn’t say anything.. it did feel like an invasion!
she was the best though! She saw me spot them, got up from her puzzle, picked them all up, crushed them really good, and threw them away.
old light:.
"for the edges of the walls and ceiling, we plan to use a broad paint brush.
then, we will use rollers to paint the big surfaces.
But we are not painters. We are delivered a direct message from painters, you can’t handle it, but not “inspired” because sometimes we paint outside of the lines.. but we only do what the painters tell us..
i am semi estranged from my jw family.
i am interested in a relationship but it never works.. they aren’t interested at all so we just leave it like that.. i received a text from my half-sister yesterday saying “your dad has cancer, it’s bad, i don’t know anything” i figured there was more to the story and if my dad needed me to know anything he would tell me.
or not.. i spoke with my mom this morning.
I had a dream last night about my dad..
i had a cat for a long time. He died a few years ago. My dad and this cat were always frenemies. Dad would make him stay outside. Cat would get dirty paw prints all over his car. Dad would makes the dogs chase the cat..
so my dream.. my cat is in heaven at the gate just weaving in and out of the spokes, he can do that since he’s a cat..
my dad comes up and knocks (like he would knock on a door for preaching) and my cat looks at him and says “look who wants in now huh.”
lol it was sweet and funny.. not scary or sad.
